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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 03 Mar 2021 01:13 #364599

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Keep it up! You're doing great!
Great that you are aware of both what helps and what doesn't. 

Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 03 Mar 2021 21:20 #364655

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Day seven.

כל השביעין חביבין -ויקרא רבה פכ״ט,ג

Having a good day. Missed Shachris, but otherwise I’m learning and staying busy. I need to make time to celebrate my clean week. Maybe I’ll order food later...

Hatzlacha
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״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 05 Mar 2021 16:50 #364807

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Day 9

Slept in today. Have a lot of things to do today, and I’m already behind...

But I’m clean today. Thank you, Hashem!
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״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 07 Mar 2021 03:58 #364843

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Day eleven 

Had a nice Shabbos. Hung out with friends for most of the day, plus a good few hours of learning in the morning.

Went for a 15 minute jog tonight.

Clean.

BH
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״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 07 Mar 2021 19:53 #364910

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Having a decent day, though I’m an emotional wreck. Probably just need to get some more sleep
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״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 07 Mar 2021 23:24 #364927

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Just got some good takeout food to celebrate my clean streak. It also cheered me up a bit as my mood was pretty down today. Overall was a good experience.
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 07 Mar 2021 23:45 #364929

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OivedElokim wrote on 07 Mar 2021 23:24:
Just got some good takeout food to celebrate my clean streak. It also cheered me up a bit as my mood was pretty down today. Overall was a good experience.

Good idea. It helps to associate staying clean with a positive reward like takeout (or so I've heard). 
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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 08 Mar 2021 15:46 #364979

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Day twelve 

Slept well last night , BH. Feeling much better.
I wanted to share the following from Chabad.org by Rabbi Tzvi Freeman. He has 20 affirmations for fighting depression. I found that they were all good, but I really connected to this one. It seems to be based on Tanya Perek 31. Here it is:

I didn’t create myself. Who made this mess and why?

It could only be that a loving Creator has decided to invest in resources that anyone else would completely ignore—because He alone sees the great potential there. As for me, I need only to dig, and I will find the gold.

With such a deep investment, the payoff must be big, very big.

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״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
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Last Edit: 08 Mar 2021 15:47 by OivedElokim.

Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 09 Mar 2021 23:14 #365134

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Day thirteen 

Good day. No urges, and doing much better emotionally, BH. 
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״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.
- Arthur Ashe
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 10 Mar 2021 00:56 #365141

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OivedElokim wrote on 09 Mar 2021 23:14:
Day thirteen 

Good day. No urges, and doing much better emotionally, BH. 

Nice

Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 10 Mar 2021 20:20 #365192

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Day fourteen 
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I’m doing well today, BH. Clean. Don’t have time for a longer post now. Maybe later today.
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״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.
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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 11 Mar 2021 03:58 #365223

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Feeling depressed lately.

Don’t feel like I was successful in Yeshiva in terms of growth or learning. I feel like I totally wasted my potential.

I know that it’s coming from my יצר הרע. I also know that I have chemical imbalances in my brain that cause depression. But it’s not going away. And it’s painful.

Anyways.
Still clean.

Good night.
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
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Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 11 Mar 2021 05:19 #365225

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good luck my friend wish you lots of hatzlocha

Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 11 Mar 2021 22:27 #365272

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Day fifteen of being clean

Having a somewhat better day today. Met a close friend and spoke a bit.

Here’s something I’m doing to cope with life: It’s of utmost importance that I communicate to others how I’m feeling and get help instead of isolating myself and living in my head. That’s something I’ve learned the hard way. So I’m going to make some phone calls today, iyh.
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״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.
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Last Edit: 11 Mar 2021 22:28 by OivedElokim.

Re: OivedElokim-I’ll never give up 12 Mar 2021 05:37 #365289

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To follow up:
Had a nice phone call with one of the chevra. Helped a lot. Thanks. You know who you are

Hopefully I’ll get a good nights sleep and I’ll have a great day tomorrow. 

GN

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״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
-Oived Elokim means a constant work in progress...
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