DAY #6

I didnt get to update the last few days. But I am burich Hashem still clean!! 

I am promising here in public that today I am going to stay clean, which means I am NOT going to search for shmutz and if shmutz enters unwillingly I will not click to open the link or the video. 

A promise by me is kept! 

Hashem, you are here for me! I can feel it! stay here! help me fight!

Clever words! @Hashem help me



I am implementing that in my strategy!! Thank you, my friend!

Any news?

How's it going? 
Are you confident with your plan? 
I found that when I could barely stay clean for a couple of days it helped to make my plan designed to be a 1 week plan during which I really pushed myself. Once the week was up I could look back and see what I could really achieve. But it's important for it to be short term and within reason. Otherwise known as ODAAT (one day at a time). 

Keep us posted

Day # 10

Thank you guys for checking up on me. 

I am fine Bh. Here are the updates. 

2 days ago I sat down with myself for a little deep thinking. Called Hisbonenes.

I was thinking about what my strategy can be.

I thought and thought.. then I realized that my focus has been to much on the actual lust. It’s nearly impossible for me to overcome a lust attack  when being face to face with it.

So I figured let me get back to basics and that is:  

What have been my main triggers lately? 

I took out a sheet of paper and made a list. It made me realize that I’m way too exposed and close by to the trigger. If triggers are near you than all you need is a small trigger. From there until a full fledged blown attack is a tiny jump. 

I figured I gotta put my energy in distancing myself  from the trigger. Instead of putting my energy in finding ways to be “strong” against the enemy itself. 

I saw that one of the main triggers happen while causal bumping into improper images on the web. Because I asked a long time ago my filter to open the images section of google. So Basically I could see anything there, even if I can’t actually go into that website. I need the images open for business purposes, but I realized that I’ve got to close that! This is ain’t doing good to me. I gotta make that sacrifice. Too bad.

So before I could even think, I sent an email to the filter company to lock my google images section. Then I asked them to lock a site that had terrible content on it, which I’ve asked them to open a while ago also for business purposes. Then I listed a few other triggers and I made a neder to stay away of those triggers for an X amount of days. And I gave myself a consequence if I break the neder, something that I wanna avoid for all cost. I also have put a reminder on my desk with the list of triggers. So I should be able to remember to stay away. 

So far so good BH. I’m really hopeful that this is going to work.

I BH got rid of major major triggers. BH for that! 

You are a role model for everyone on GYE! How many people actually seriously identify their triggers and take such immediate action? Very few, but YOU are one of them! This should be a huge zchus in fighting this battle! 

Keep up the great work! 

Day #11

WOW, thanks @Realestatemogul! Humbled from the great compliment. Thank you! 

I think this is the only way to be successful in this battle. In the past, all long streaks I have been able to do came only as a result of addressing my triggers and taking action to get rid of them or to distance myself from it as far as possible.

How are you going to use that rifle without a trigger? Maybe you should go back to the fistfighting guy you had before

Haha. It’s the same guy... he just felt insecure without a rifle... let me think how to tell him that Gevura suggests to get rid of this trigger too... 

DAY #13



B"H 4 days and still clean. 

DAY #14



5 days clean B"h

DAY #15 

6 Days clean BH.

You are one brave and focused fellow. You sound like a martial arts guy - who doesn't need a gun at all.

Day #16

7 day clean BH

yuyu wrote on 18 Nov 2020 23:07:

Mazal tov on a week! Many more!