Day #14.

I am now going to switch to posting every other day. I have had very few urges in these two weeks. Being intentional about stopping and posting here have been great interventions.

Although I have written about this in my previous streaks, it is worth noting again. I do not have any access to stimulating materials. That is the greatest intervention.

Day #16.

Right after I wrote that post on day #14 about having very few urges, I had an urge. I got up from my desk and got some fresh air. That helped this time. Other than that,--due to my extra measure of caution and intentionality--smooth sailing.

Day #18.

G'mar chasimoh tovoh.

Day #20.

Day #22.

I wouldn't call yesterday challenging in the sense that I almost had a "fall," but I did have a lot of urges. So, in that sense, challenging.

I have written about how I am spread very thin professionally and that I work from home. Not easy to stay on top of everything and be productive all the time. Also, it is very stressful. I am very behind on some deadlines. I hope to unbury myself during Chol HaMoed or after Simchas Torah and then set up a regular schedule to easily meet all of my obligations. The main thing is that I should only be in front of the computer screen when I have to. Not the whole day. Way too may distractions. The distractions keep me from being productive and then the urges come. But, b"h, no access to stimulating materials.

There are definitely alot of challenges these days, and yom tov and covid isn't the easiest duo. Wishing much success in catching up and work obligations and staying the course! 

Day #26.

Day #28.

Unfortunately, I am spending Chol HaMoed--a time meant for eating, drinking and learning Torah--catching up on all the work that I am behind on. Fortunately, my seven-year-old daughter is spending each day playing in my office. I am much more productive with her in the room and don't have any issues or urges. 

A gutn moed!

שבע יפול צדיק וקם wrote on 07 Oct 2020 13:19:

This is surely better then me, spending my Chol Hamoed, a time meant to catch up on all my learning, instead on eating and drinking. 

The main thing I think is to be productive, In all my years I have never felt even the faintest amount of productivity from eating and drinking, but that's just me.

wilnevergiveup wrote on 08 Oct 2020 06:48:

I totally agree with you, wilnevergiveup. I was just quoting the Talmud Yerushalmi. In fact, that is what the Yerushalmi says!
Bo Bar Mamel said: If there was someone who would be appointed with me, I would permit all forms of work on Chol HaMoed. The reason they initially forbade work on Chol HaMoed was so that they could eat, drink, and learn Torah. But in reality, they are eating, drinking, and pochazin (getting drunk and sinning).

Day #30.

Wishing everyone a good Shabbos and a good Yontif. 

Day #33.

Day #34.

I am struggling at the moment with a strong urge to masturbate. I have been saying "no" for about an hour now. I decided to write a quick post about it.

I pray to Hashem that the urge should not overcome me and that I should be able to report "day #35" tomorrow.

Tomorrow is day 35

And it's up to you to make sure

Hatzlacha 

שבע יפול צדיק וקם wrote on 13 Oct 2020 15:10:

Go for a jog.  that will help break the urge.  At the very least, go out for a walk