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This is going to be the time I get to 90!
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Scientific studies show that it takes 90 days to break an addictive pattern in the mind. Start your own Log of your journey to 90 days! Post here to update us on your status and to give each other chizuk to stay strong!

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Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 14 Dec 2020 05:55 #358645

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I can’t imagine how hard it must be for you.
Amazing that you maintain an unrelenting resolve.
As you yourself mentioned, it’s not about the streak. It’s about becoming a person not enslaved to these taivos. And Baruch HaShem you have clearly made it and are continuing forward.

I hope to one day be free like yourself.

May you continue being matzliach and inspiring Klall Yisrael
Last Edit: 14 Dec 2020 05:58 by YeshivaGuy.

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 14 Dec 2020 06:39 #358649

WOW! A year clean!! That's just beyond everything!!.

Intense strength shown over there! You thought your body good and well in not giving in to every good feeling!

Honestly WOW!! Gye 5 star!!!
Joined as a single bochur, Bh broke free (but still on watch) by using the tools on this website, therapy but mainly through getting married. 

הנותן עיניו במה שאינו שלו, מה שמבקש לא נותנים לו, ומה שבידו נוטלים ממנה

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Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 15 Dec 2020 01:26 #358719

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Thank you Zedj, Yeshiva Guy, and S&K! An all the "thank you's!"

I really appreciate all the support and positivity I get on these Forums. I truly can only do this with all the help and assistance from everyone on GYE. Everyone should realize that not only do they help themselves by posting on these forums, but every single post on your own thread or someone else's helps us all overcome this nisayon! Together we are stronger! 

As I write this, I wonder if there is maybe a special siyata dishmaya that Hashem gives to Klal Yisroel when we come together to become better people.  Maybe, Hashem says you want to be better and you ALSO want to help your friend be better?! For that you deserve extra help to grow and succeed in Kedushah. Mitzvah Gorreres Mitzvah. 

Thank you GYE for making all of this possible and thank you to everyone for continued support, clicking the thank you button, and posting on these forums! 

V'kam, V'kam, V'KAM!  

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 15 Dec 2020 14:59 #358763

איש את רעהו יעזרו ולאחיו יאמר חזק (ישעיה מא:ו)

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 17 Dec 2020 22:29 #358995

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Day 0

V'kam V'kam V'kam....

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 17 Dec 2020 22:55 #358998

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Has the BIG red reboot button been pressed?
Wishing you much success this time around

Afreilechen Chanukah!
Last Edit: 17 Dec 2020 23:12 by Zedj.

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 17 Dec 2020 23:29 #359002

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Realestatemogul wrote on 17 Dec 2020 22:29:
Day 0

V'kam V'kam V'kam....

Don’t forget the previous word!!

Tzadik! Tzadik! Tzadik!!!!!
Last Edit: 17 Dec 2020 23:29 by YeshivaGuy.

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 18 Dec 2020 02:56 #359021

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Realestatemogul wrote on 17 Dec 2020 22:29:
Day 0

V'kam V'kam V'kam....

Mr. REM, you are a huge inspiration to all of us here always! Don't let a tiny speed bump turn into a giant pothole! 
I can be reached at: Grant.400@yahoo.com

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 18 Dec 2020 04:30 #359038

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Realestatemogul wrote on 17 Dec 2020 22:29:
Day 0

V'kam V'kam V'kam....

My friend I am in awe of you. Just reading the last to pages of this thread is making me tear up. 
I don’t recall ever falling after such a long streak. I don’t think I’ve ever gotten nearly a year clean. And still every fall, particularly after a good streak (50-100 days) i would be paralyzed. I’m so moved by your resilience. KUTGW, and keep posting...
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
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״ואם העצבות...מהרהוריםרעים ותאוות רעות שנופלות במחשבתו...אדרבה יש לו לשמוח בחלקו שאף שנופלות במחשבתו הוא מסיח דעתו מהן לקיים מש״נ ולא תתורו אחרי לבבכם ואחרי עיניכם אשר אתם זונים אחריהם...שנופלים לו הרהורי ניאוף במחשבתו...וכשמסיח דעתו מקיים לאו זה ואמרז״ל ישב ולא עבר עבירה נותנים לו שכר כאילו עשה מצוה וע״כ צריך לשמוח בקיום הלאו כמו בקיום מ״ע ממש״
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

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Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 18 Dec 2020 06:23 #359054

Oy! Ye I remember those days after my biggest streak where I kept on falling, and it would get really frustrating. 

Have you tried smart recovery?

Continue rocking!!! Your a big fighter!
Joined as a single bochur, Bh broke free (but still on watch) by using the tools on this website, therapy but mainly through getting married. 

הנותן עיניו במה שאינו שלו, מה שמבקש לא נותנים לו, ומה שבידו נוטלים ממנה

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Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 20 Dec 2020 16:29 #359165

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Hey GYE!

I am not giving up on you (or me)!

BH I can say that I had 16 clean days after that first day I fell, and now I am back at 3 days! Also, bh I haven't watched any p$%n in my falls. 

I am not going to think about my previous 362 day record, and instead continue to do what has always worked. Smaller goals. 

My next goal is to get to 40 days. 

I am also going to try to do two things every day of these 40 days to help myself get back up. 

1)Exercise or Stretch every day. 
2)Learn a bit of Mesilas Yesharim. 

I have (with this account) 859 cumulative clean days!! I am not giving up and I will continue to do everything I can to break free!

Please continue to support me on my journey - it is extremely appreciated! 

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 20 Dec 2020 16:53 #359171

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We are with you all the way!!
Keep up the optimism and the focus on the successes and never give up!! You're a chizuk to all of us!

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 20 Dec 2020 17:46 #359194

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Your determination is amazing!
Keep posting!

Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 21 Dec 2020 06:43 #359266

Wow, no porn in any of your falls? 
I couldn't resist watching porn once I anyhow fell.

My yh would tell me, "you fell anyways, you might as well enjoy yourself more"

Keep rocking!
Joined as a single bochur, Bh broke free (but still on watch) by using the tools on this website, therapy but mainly through getting married. 

הנותן עיניו במה שאינו שלו, מה שמבקש לא נותנים לו, ומה שבידו נוטלים ממנה

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Re: This is going to be the time I get to 90! 21 Dec 2020 12:34 #359269

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Realestatemogul wrote on 20 Dec 2020 16:29:
Bh I haven't watched any p$%n in my falls. 
I have (with this account) 859 cumulative clean days!! I am not giving up and I will continue to do everything I can to break free!

Please continue to support me on my journey - it is extremely appreciated! 

Gadlus! What an attitude! Instead of that yi'ush we all know of, REM looks at the big picture. In real life, a single fellow with 859 cumulative days means that BH he is basically cured from being controlled by urges. In real life we sometimes slip with lashon hara, anger, or like in this case mz"l. It does not mean we are back to where we started.  Secondly, the complete absence of pornography shows that REM has bli ayin hara convinced himself that pornography is toxic poison and simply stays away. He will iyh have one very fortunate wife...… May Hashem answer his tefillos for that soon!
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