A.CHECK, i agree because you had a long streak your say no  muscles are stronger .
B.CHECK,i agree that its the benefit of fighting and being clean for 139.and im sure youll get there again!

139 is an incredible accomplishment! Those days are yours forever. Sounds like you are in serious recovery and that your fall was very short and although unfortunate, a time to look back, see what was accomplished, learn from what happened and move on. Try to figure out what the trigger was and help prepare for that eventuality again. In reality, for many of us, this journey is like climbing a mountain. Along the way there are ditches and pits that need to be crossed to get to the top. There are also times that we need to head downhill to get to the next path heading up. Get up, shake off the dust, bandage your scratched knees and keep on climbing. May Hashem be with you and protect you.

Hi Everybody, thank you all for your comments.
I am trying to make my strategy and my tools stronger. I discovered in the past 2 weeks that once the yetser hara find a loophole, then it will exploit it as much as possible. One of the keys for me to fight this is to connect to people. Connect is the opposite to isolate. If I could have more fighting partners around when I feel weak or tempted, I think I could do much better! So far, I had 1 or 2 fighting partners but sometimes they are not available and this is where it gets dangerous. I wanted to ask in this forum who would be ready to be in my google hangout list. It would be totally anonymous and like this I can have many options of fighting partners to reach out. Obviously I can return the favor and if I can be helpful, it would be even more amazing Let me know what you think of this idea.

hi ,sounds great,whats google hang out?

Google hangout is the Google messaging system. It is an app that you can install on your phone. You only need a google account to use it so it is completely anonymous

Hi everybody, anyone interested in the google hangout list?

Hello everybody, this is my thread where I share my ups and downs. Well this is a down period for me. I've been doing poorly lately. Falling numerous times (last fall yesterday night). My system seems to be broken and I need fresh ideas to get back up. I would really like to have fighting partners that I can turn to when I am in difficulty. The system I use is the google hangout app on my phone. It is a chat system completely anonymous. Let me know if anyone would be interested to get the app so that I can gather several fighting partners. I need to get out of the isolation. This is the key to success in this fight. Connect!! The opposite of Isolate! Let me know.

benblum wrote on 08 May 2018 13:58:

God speed! 

Imho, the key to success is to connect, but really connect. Anonymous connections are not real, and therefore, change is not real either.

Is it better than not connectin' at all? Yes, but one needs to be honest in his recovery growth.

That is what I found with myself, and I have seen that with many others as well.

I agree with you. I don't think that there are meeting close to me. Is there maybe a middleground option, like phone meeting that I could try to participate too?

benblum wrote on 08 May 2018 16:28:

There's actually a call this afternoon@ 1:30 est. It's still anonymous unless you'd like to get more involved.

How do I get in the call? What is a number to dial? Is it like a shiur or more like a meeting?

benblum wrote on 08 May 2018 17:00:

sent you an email.

cordnoy wrote on 08 May 2018 14:43:


1. My experience has been similar to Cordnoy. Real connections to people is where the real recovery is at. 
2. Just an fyi, I used to use hangouts until I received some lustful spam texts so I deleted it.

Real connection is the way to go. It is what saved me. I think you know my opinion on this.........

I understand. So what are my options for real connection especially if there are no meeting close to me?