Day #37

B"h today was pretty easy. Iy"h it should continue. 

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Day #38

B"h things were good today. Not much to report. 

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Day #39

Things are going well again. Last night I started looking at some stuff that I shouldn't have, and I was able to stop be"h.  I've been completely clean for a week and clean from porn for almost six weeks. I would have never thought that this was possible for me.

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Keep up the incredible posts. They are transparent (honest), frequent, and very positive.

Day #41

Friday and Shabbos were good, thankfully.  I'm almost halfway to my goal of not watching any porn for ninety days.  Also, I've been almost a week and a half without masturbation with very few struggles.  While I still need a lot of work, I think that at this point I can see a little bit what life is like for someone who doesn't struggle with this and how it can be that someone just doesn't care for it or need it at all.  Life is so much calmer and clearer, even with my small improvements that once I'm over this (as much as is possible) I can't imagine what it would be like.

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Day #42

I finished six weeks! B"h today is going well. 

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Day #43

I've been pretty busy lately with some stuff that I've gotten involved with which has really given me more of a purpose and has helped immensely in this struggle.  Not watching porn has really enabled me to get involved in things outside of myself and getting involved in other projects with other people makes it tremendously easier not to watch porn and masturbate.  I haven't masturbated in almost two weeks and have barely noticed it.

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Day #44

I'm still going pretty strong.  B"h no news today.

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Very very nice!! 

I was also able to have a glimpse of what life looks like absent porn, it looks amazing indeed. 

Day #45

I'm half way there!  I've also been clean from masturbation for almost two weeks!

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Day #46

I'm in the second half.  I also am clean from any falls including masturbation for two weeks.  It's really exciting for me!

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For me, as i am approaching day #90, it is not anymore a goal of days, my goal is every day, to have that day clean. and every day that i have clean it is a treasure of Netzach. But on the other hand having a continuous of days, with no day missing days in between, is much more a far more greater, then having some falls in between. we all know the Vort of reb Chaim Schmulevitz, that Reb akiva did not enter his home to see his wife, when he heard from outside, that his wie told her neighbor, that if my husband would hear, he would learn another 12 years torah, so reb Akiva turned himself around and went back to his learning. and Reb Chaim asked, that if he came already close to his house, even if he wants to go back right away, he could have said hello to hos wife, and Reb Chaim Answered that, 12 plus 12 is not full 24. which means that learning 24 years without interuption, is far more greater then learning 12 plus 12 years with a small interuption in between, anyways guys have lechtige Chanukah.

i have heard a different answer b'shem a different r' chaim that he was afraid if he went in he might not come out
that would mean to me that there is a fear of losing momentum that you may not come 
in some seforim that is a description of yiras shomayim
but this will not help you if you don't understand it like everything else

Thanks tzomah:smiley:

Day #47

B"h everything is still good.

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