Day #32 will engrave todays post in Gold, I reached a milestone! 1/3 of 90 days!
B"H I passed day #29, 30, and 31
what a journey, Today is #32, wow, i passed 1/3 of the Wall of Honor clean, what an achievement!!!! I wasn't around to celebrate publicly my 30th day, but i did personally, i was overcome with joy,  im so excited, if i would can, i would gave a big tikin in shil, for me its something i never dreamed it would ever happan.

Im almost reachin 40 days, which breaks bad habits, that will be wonderful, and im positive that i will get there.

I had a picture perfect clean weekend, first  time ever, a shabbes with no lust! It was great, Thank You Hashem, thanks for my great partner, and thanks to all of you.

today is #32, and today only, היום אם בקולו תשמעו, I will be on top of my soul, I'm not interested what it will happen in tomorrow or in 2 weeks, or 2 months... and the today is not that long, just a few hours, and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down.

Day #33
B"H I passed day #32
I passed day #32, what a journey, Today is #33, יסוד שביסוד, I feel B”H great,

I had a picture perfect clean yesterday!

Thank You Hashem, thanks for my great partner, and thanks to all of you.

today is #33, and today only, היום אם בקולו תשמעו, I will be on top of my soul, I'm not interested what it will happen in tomorrow or in 2 weeks, or 2 months... and the today is not that long, just a few hours, and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down.

Day #34
B"H I passed day #33, what a journey, Today is #34, מלכות שביסוד, I feel B”H great,

I had a picture perfect clean yesterday! at the beginning of the night, i had a big fight, I was thinking back and forth, but i won, I didn’t do anything, the stopping point was, that I'm not going to kill my success for just a second of הנאת דמיון.

Thank You Hashem, thanks for my great partner, and thanks to all of you.

today is #34, and today only, היום אם בקולו תשמעו, I will be on top of my soul, I'm not interested what it will happen in tomorrow or in 2 weeks, or 2 months... and the today is not that long, just a few hours, and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down.

Day #35 ~ 5 Weeks 

B"H I passed day #34, what a journey, Today is #35, 5 weeks, who would imagine that, after 30 years struggling, ill reach to 5 weeks clean, I feel B”H great, BUT, I won’t fool myself, I’m still an addict, and I need to be constantly fully aware of that. I’m still on top of the hill, one slip and booms.

I had a picture perfect clean yesterday! B”H

Thank You Hashem, thanks for my great partner, and thanks to all of you.

today is #35, and today only, היום אם בקולו תשמעו, I will be on top of my soul, I'm not interested what it will happen in tomorrow or in 2 weeks, or 2 months... and the today is not that long, just a few hours, and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down.

Day #36

B"H I passed day #35, what a journey, Today is #36.

I had a picture perfect clean yesterday! I feel B”H great, BUT, I won’t fool myself, I’m still an addict, and I need to be constantly fully aware of that. I’m still on top of the hill, one slip and booms.

Thank You Hashem, thanks for my great partner, and thanks to all of you.

today is #36, and today only, היום אם בקולו תשמעו, I will be on top of my soul, I'm not interested what happend in the past, and what it will happen in tomorrow or in 2 weeks, or 2 months... and the today is not that long, just a few hours, and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down, I want to stay clean, and help me and all Klal Yisroel stay clean.

Good going! It's so nice to see! Iyh many more happy healthy days to come!!!

Chaimel wrote on 26 May 2017 02:20:

Thank you for your support...
you should have the strength to continue clean every Today your entire life.
Stay Strong..

Day #37 ~ A Good Chodesh

B"H I passed day #36, what a journey, Today is #37.

I had a picture perfect clean yesterday! I feel B”H great, BUT, I won’t fool myself, I’m still an addict, and I need to be constantly fully aware of that. I’m still on top of the hill, one slip and booms.

Thank You Hashem, thanks for my great partner, and thanks to all of you.

today is #36, and today only, היום אם בקולו תשמעו, I will be on top of my soul, I'm not interested what happend in the past, and what it will happen in tomorrow or in 2 weeks, or 2 months... and the today is not that long, just a few hours, and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down, I want to stay clean, and help me and all Klal Yisroel stay clean.

Day #39

B"H I passed day #37 & 38, what a journey, Today is #39.

Shabes was great, i didnt had any struggle, i feel B”H great, Friday i had a VERY hard & tough day, BUT, it passed clean, הודו לשם, i will fight & fight untill my last day of life, iy"h, my father in the sky will be very proud of me...

i won’t fool myself, I’m still an addict, and I need to be constantly fully aware of that. I’m still on top of the hill, one slip and booms.

Thank You Hashem, thanks for my great partner, and thanks to all of you.

In 3 days it will be ראש השנה for our sickness, ראש השנה לאילנות, כי האדם עץ השדה, lets pray for a good verdict, i wish you all a כתיבה וחתימה טובה,

today is #39, and today only, היום אם בקולו תשמעו, I will be on top of my soul, I'm not interested what happend in the past, and what it will happen in tomorrow or in 2 weeks, or 2 months... and the today is not that long, just a few hours, and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down, I want to stay clean, and help me and all Klal Yisroel stay clean.

Day #40

B"H I passed day #39, what a journey, Today is #40.

Yesterday I was clean as clean, super clean, no lust or anything else..

Thank You Hashem, thanks for my great partner, and thanks to all of you.

40 days means a lot for me, R' Elimailach says in Tsetel Kuten, that doing anything 40 days in a row, breaks a habit... so here I am, I'm sooo excited... but, i won’t fool myself, I’m still an addict, and I need to be constantly fully aware of that. I’m still on top of the hill, one slip and booms.

2 days to the big day!!! By matan torah the yidden were very besimcha, why not be Besimcha, they are getting a "Matanah Tova" plus, there was no depression at all about the passed, because they didn't had yet the torah, they didn't had any mitsves or aveires, so the simcha was till the sky, so the same is happening today in 2017, it comes down the same simcha, and we shouldn’t look at the passed, as if we didn't have the torah until now, and now we are getting it from fresh.... בכל יום יהיה מחודשים בעינך

today is #40, and today only, היום אם בקולו תשמעו, I will be on top of my soul, I'm not interested what happend in the past, and what it will happen in tomorrow or in 2 weeks, or 2 months... and the today is not that long, just a few hours, and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down, I want to stay clean, and help me and all Klal Yisroel stay clean

Day #41

B"H I passed day #40, what a journey, Today is #41.

Yesterday I was clean as clean, super clean, no lust or anything else..

Thank You Hashem, thanks for my great partner, and thanks to all of you.



Tomorrow is the big day!!! By matan torah the yidden were very besimcha, why not be Besimcha, they are getting a "Matanah Tova" plus, there was no depression at all about the passed, because they didn't had yet the torah, they didn't had any mitsves or aveires, so the simcha was till the sky, so the same is happening today in 2017, it comes down the same simcha, and we shouldn’t look at the passed, as if we didn't have the torah until now, and now we are getting it from fresh.... בכל יום יהיה מחודשים בעינך

Tomorrow is another big day, im reaching my 6th week, totally clean, no porn, no masturbathing, no eye's wandering, clean sober.... im very happy with my self.....

today is #41, and today only, היום אם בקולו תשמעו, I will be on top of my soul, I'm not interested what happend in the past, and what it will happen in tomorrow or in 2 weeks, or 2 months... and the today is not that long, just a few hours, and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down, I want to stay clean, and help me and all Klal Yisroel stay clean

Sir, please allow me to thank you for being such an inspiration. 

May G-d keep guiding you on this journey, and may He guard you against temptation! 

I love how you take it one day at a time, your "Today is #..." and I am summarily adopting it as my own mantra as well.

Toda raba!

Ooooh! I can't take it. So much chizuk!!  

Keep it up! 

Hatzlacha! Your Inspiration-Trucking company is operating well on a DAY to DAY basis!

Chag Samaeach!!!!!!!

Day #0

I dont know how to start, i dont know what to think, and i dont know how to react, and what to do next..... im crying, i need chizik and support, 

Im shattered, im broken to thousands pcs, i had my fall this shabbes afternoon, i cant come to my self, i know that this is not the way to react, becuase thats exactly what the YH wants, that after a fall i should get meyiash and get back to my bad habits, but i promise that i wont get back to it, im starting right now my clean days again, but im still shattered, i dont have the right words to express myself... im soooo broked, if i would be able to cry i would do that, im just between people, im hollering within me, איך בין אזוי ציבראכן, i feel im fighting a MONSTER,

after the fall, i felt sooooo relaxed, why? why did i got relaxed? I was fighting for the last 7 weeks, and now i fell, the YH got me, and im feeling a crazy feeling, like huuuuuuu, im done with the fight, but i PROMISE im back on track.

So how did that happen? No clue, when i used to masturbath it worked with fantasies, of other women, or it was after watching porn etc. but now i got up after my afternoon nap, and i find my self pleasuring, my head didnt even think about taphsic or something else, it took 5 minutes and the damage was done, just 5 minutes, i didnt think about women or anything bad, as a matter of fact, i didnt think about any sexual thing for the last 7 week, i didnt look at any websites, so why did it happaned? So i have 2 scenarios 1) after yom tov, after being on a yom tove high, and now i came down to a lower level, so that triggered, moitse pesach i had the same thing, i was clean for 2 weeks and i fell motse peasach 2) the afternoon by it self is a problem, i was afraid for that for the last few weeks, i knew that the afternoons are a major problem for me, should i stop sleeping shbbas afternoon? Is that the right way to do it? Or do i need to go on with my life, and control myself? I dont know...

I feel לא עלינו ווי א אבל נאך די קבורה, im so broken, i cant come to my self, i cant concentrate. I need your support, please dont let me down,

One thing i can tell you all, and believe me, DONT YOU DARE TO FALL, its horrible, the aftermath is shreklich, i feel like junk, garbage, i promise im not going to fall again that fast, (mmmm dont promise)

Hey, the anger may be coming from a good place. The fact that you're frustrated, even if it's a ploy of the יצר הרע, it's still coming from a place within you that only wants to do good. Focus on your success. 7 weeks! When was the last time you had a streak like that? You're doing fantastic, by picking yourself up right now and not just letting loose now that you feel any way. This shows your dedication. If it were me, I may very well just take off for a few more days, just to "catch up", but that's not what you're doing so כל הכבוד. Not saying this just to make you feel better, it's the absolute truth. You can get back to where you were, and I believe that you will. You've definitely put up a strong fight. At the present moment, I don't have any advice on what you should do differently, but I've correction I'd like to make: as soon as you start, count that as day #1. So you're either day #1 or #2, but definitely not #0. :-)