Congratulations
it was a win and you should feel a sense of accomplishment
There's nothing wrong with feeling good about yourself when you have a small victory
World war 2 started for the USA with unimaginable losses.the leadership at times thought we would lose everything.
But the first very small (and in the big picture inconsequential)win lead eventually to the ultimate victory
Gut shabbos

LifneiHashem wrote on 02 Dec 2016 17:00:

That would be a win for me. Especially early in recovery.

90 days. Thank you to all of you who have opened up and exposed your inner thoughts on this forum. I absolutely could not have made it this far without you. 

Re: my last post- A clearer term than win or lose would be a step forward vs a step backward. Sure it was a win to watch spider video and not P&M. But it would be a tough argument to say it was a step forward towards recovery and not a step backward. 

KUTGW! I wish you much Hatzlacha. Btw, I always loved your thread title.

Shlomo24 wrote:

Thank you. BTW your shoulders are included! I read your story and was very moved. I hope you are in a good place. 

A win is a win Is a win 
congrats on 90
The way I see it is.the very fact that you were on YouTube and you DIDN'T look at anything remotely close to shmutz makes it a win.yes I agree it might not be a step forward,but it definitely wasn't a step backwards.
I like to use analogies
Let's use football for this one.
5 minutes left in the fourth quarter
Your team can win with a field goal,if the offense goes four and out but the defense holds is that a step backwards?? I don't think so.true they didn't gain anything but they didn't lose either.but if the offense turns the ball over that is definitely a step backwards
YOUR offense didn't gain but you didn't turn it over either.and than YOUR defense went to work and within 10 minutes you had a fresh set of downs
A gut vuch
And keep on keeping on

Good job LifneiHashem! Very inspiring!

It definitely is a win. 

ps. I have found for youtube (i generally need it for educational videos on math and stuff) what I do is use the blocksi web filter (it is an extension for chrome) and it has a youtube by category filter. It is not that hard to get around a chrome extension filter if one wants to, BUT if the filter in your head is working, when you browse to categories of videos to just aimlessly fill time, it will block the video. It lets you know that this video is not a reason you need to be on youtube. I can say that it has saved me tons of time. IF someone emails me a you tube video and i open it and it gets blocked, I know that I don't need to see it.  (I have disabled all but four categories of videos and It still gives me access to nearly all the math vids that I need) Just something I find helpful.

pps, for youtube, sometimes what gets people is the thumbnails, you can disable them by turning off images for youtube (either in a filter, or in the chrome settings). Another way to get rid of them without messing up button images for the menu and such is to use the adblock chrome extension and select one of the thumbnails and set it as an ad. Then all the thumbnails will be blocked w/o affected the titles of the recommended movies. Those are my youtube settings, and without them I would be quite nervous going on youtube, in the same way I would be nervous about walking on a rickety footbridge across a deep gorge. I might make it but maybe I wont.

Sorry for the thread invasion just some things related to the youtube discussion. Keep up the wonderful trucking, and keep up the wins!!!

LifneiHashem wrote on 02 Dec 2016 17:00:

Spiders have too many legs for me.

TzedekChaim wrote:

Thanks for this info. Can I do this with iPad/safari?

cordnoy wrote:

Your right, should have stuck with cannibal videos...

LifneiHashem wrote on 05 Dec 2016 00:01:

Personally, I enjoy hyena videos.

AsI an aside, how come I never see tigers on fight night?

I don't believe so. Unfortunately the tablets and phones don't give the customer the same level of control as a full fledged desktop (or chromebook in my case).

Another reason I like to use chrome is that when I am on someone else's computer I can log in to my chrome account and then browse with my web filter and settings. (it doesn't mean that the computer can access treif stuff, just that I can browse without having to have sketchy or inappropriate sites popping up. )

Hello, it's been a little while but I just wanted to check in with a few updates:
1) spiders are far more interesting than hyenas. 
2) today is day 100. I vote to change 90 day chart to 100 days. It has a better ring to it. 

LifneiHashem wrote on 13 Dec 2016 00:46:

II beg to differ. Hyena/lion fights are captivating. Hyena/anything fights beat spider/beetle interactions.

Female hyenas have an appendage similar to the male member making childbirth quite difficult. Both sexes do a dance with erections to greet each other.
I rest my case. Stick with spiders.