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just had a fall 18 Aug 2015 02:24 #262027

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I didn't believe this would ever happen again (I know the SA people are going to react with the one day at a time & you have to believe that you are not able to overcome it ...) but I didn't believe this was my situation - I didn't think this would happen.

I know exactly what happened - we moved to a new filter (VCF), but did not yet fine tune it & I tested how powerful it was and fell. This was crazy.

Re: just had a fall - getting up immediately 18 Aug 2015 02:30 #262031

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I must jump up immediately/
I think I need daily chizuk - please help me out

Re: just had a fall - getting up immediately 18 Aug 2015 02:31 #262032

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SA people? I believe Hashem said it long ago.
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Re: just had a fall 18 Aug 2015 02:53 #262036

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eny wrote:
I didn't believe this would ever happen again (I know the SA people are going to react with the one day at a time & you have to believe that you are not able to overcome it ...) but I didn't believe this was my situation - I didn't think this would happen.

I know exactly what happened - we moved to a new filter (VCF), but did not yet fine tune it & I tested how powerful it was and fell. This was crazy.


Welcome
Sorry to hear.
Why did you believe that it would never happen again?
What secret potion were you usin' that you thought was fool-proof?
And by the way, how long were you sober for?

Thanks
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Re: just had a fall - getting up immediately 18 Aug 2015 03:00 #262039

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You're 100% right

Re: just had a fall - getting up immediately 18 Aug 2015 03:03 #262042

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eny wrote:
You're 100% right


First it went straight to my ego and inflated head - then i realized he probably meant Moish.
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Re: just had a fall - getting up immediately 18 Aug 2015 03:07 #262043

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Moish is also 100% right, but I meant you. I have to think a lot longer about his response. As foolish as it sounds, I really did think it would not happen again & I have to think why.

Re: just had a fall - getting up immediately 18 Aug 2015 03:15 #262044

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sorry for mixing up your names.
I'm clearly a novice forum participant.

no secret potion. naivete: I had a naive belief that a combination of a strong will and mentally distancing that kind of behavior would keep me away from it.

I was on day 58.
Thanks for realizing how important it was for me to hear from one of the people on the forum right away. I really appreciate that

Re: just had a fall 18 Aug 2015 03:49 #262045

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Welcome back! B"H you're not humpty dumpty Sorry, If this isn't the time for fun.
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Re: just had a fall - getting up immediately 18 Aug 2015 05:20 #262047

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eny wrote:
sorry for mixing up your names.


Do Moish and Cordnoy sound the same?
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Re: just had a fall - getting up immediately 18 Aug 2015 12:36 #262061

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same gematria

Re: just had a fall - getting up immediately 18 Aug 2015 13:11 #262069

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eny wrote:
same gematria


קרדנו = 360
ביג משה = 360

Very kewl!!!!!
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Re: just had a fall - getting up immediately 18 Aug 2015 14:32 #262083

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cordnoy wrote:
eny wrote:
same gematria


קרדנו = 360
ביג משה = 360

Very kewl!!!!!

360=פעמעלי + קיגל

Re: just had a fall - getting up immediately 18 Aug 2015 15:23 #262100

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ZDuvid wrote:
cordnoy wrote:
eny wrote:
same gematria


קרדנו = 360
ביג משה = 360

Very kewl!!!!!

360=פעמעלי + קיגל


No, it doesn't!
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Re: just had a fall - getting up immediately 18 Aug 2015 19:39 #262142

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If it helps at all,

I am on day 3 and have no clue how you made it to day 58. In my eyes you are a couragous warior keep it up!!
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