So I had my first (and to be last) fall on GYE
But I'm going to replace guilt with gratitude and start over. Almost finished my first clean 24 hour (still no clue how the chart works for people not in America!)
Without going into details the fall happened exactly as I predicted, which probably makes it worse. And the issue as always is not only falling, but the guilt that follows and then the mild depression, the staying in bed etc etc.
But I learn again. And get back up again.
And again the rules stay very simple.
One day at a time.
And stop yourself long before it is difficult to do so.

here' a clever one:

"The chains of habit are too weak to be felt until they are too strong to be broken"

Samuel Johnson (Guy who made the dictionary)

Hope you're all staying strong! Chodesh Tov

I wouldn't be so sure that it's worse that the fall happened exactly as you predicted. Being aware of how we operate is probably important. What's more important is what you do now though, and it looks like you are doing the right thing! For me personally, with my fall or without my fall, I have never in my life (with one exception-year in Israel) had this many clean days. I actually make have more clean days in the past six months than I have in several years. So, I'm extremely grateful for those days!

And how about all the days that you have inspired others to achieve?

You have a lot more positive days in your cheshbon then you can even dream of.

thank you so much both for your kind words!
It's funny how long it takes to get back to feeling how you were before the fall...actually living the life you believe in.
But a couple of days into my streak now. Happy.
Today was a good day, productivity seems to be the solution to Tayvah for me.
It's said that Rav Lichtenstein used literally every second of time to the best of his ability.
Devastatingly, with his passing some of this middah is now lost form the world. It seems appropriate to work to replace it!
Hope everyone else is staying strong, and thanks to those who reached out!

Already onto the third clean day.
Time goes fast!
Very exciting.

I need to constantly be using this site to stay strong.
Looking forward to the Yom Hazikaron/Atzmaut services later

You seem to drive your journey(s) very well, it's lightfull !
Thank you for such an energic and positive attitude, it's very communicative to me !

Waiting good news from you !

Good!
And you're streak really is an inspiration...keep it up!

Onto the fourth day.
Yom Haatzmaut!!!
What inspirational services.
Very jealous of everyone in Eretz Yisrael right.
Hatzlacha to everyone for their struggles today

Fifth day...the grind continues
still havent fallen which is great but I do need to work harder on putting myself in positions where I will fall.
That's the next challenge.

Anyway shabbat shalom to all!

Amazing !

Each day is a brakha min hashamayim !

You're doing great !
Go on your way we are all with you !

Gut Shabbes

everything's the same as in my last post
I hope this counts as growth!
Grrrhhh
Anyway still going strong
Lo Taturu Acharei Levavechem Ve acharei eynechem!
Gut voch

I found that things count for what I want them to count for.

Hatzlacha!

Hi Ysftw!!!

Keep up the good work and keep on posting.

Your a true inspiration for all of us here.

NO DD, You are an inspiration! seriously 80 days is like a dream to me.

So...firstly I'm going to admit I'm more of an addict than I thought I was.
Secondly I finally understand the importance of shmirat eiynayim, even from days before images in your mind can get you when your guard is down.
Thirdly it's weird how completely I fall when I fall.

Anyway, so for now I'm going to be much more dedicated to this website and it's facilities. I'm going to work on making sure I'm persaonlly growing on a regular basis. Have weekly checks on this.

And now I'm back up and running and ready for EACH DAY AT A TIME!

You seem to have learnt a lot about you during these few days !

Happy to see the lion is back !