B"H so far i have been clean for 1 week, over the week i had this fear of not going to be able to act out ever again! These dont last long & I am very very happy that i am clean, can anyone relate to such thoughts? Is this normal?

It is called "Fear of Sobriety."
Always leavin' a back-door opened.
Wantin' to stay clean, but if the goin' gets tough, it's there for the takin'.

to answer your question though, "No, I have no idea of what you're talkin about."

Sasha 2 wrote:
Yes! Very normal. Whenever I would do "teshuva", I'd feel it's chaval that I have to get rid of all this "stuff", cuz when I invariably slip, slip, slip, fall, I will have to go through a lot of effort to get it back, and build it up again. Crazy, but true.

Just wanted to add to what was said that if you feel scared that you will not "be able" to act out again, well that might be a sign that deep down you really don't want to give up acting out...
Try to focus on why you want to stop... What was it like till now?
Hatzlacha!

I personally never got that. But I have def heard of that. Especially if acting out is an escape for you. For example some people get triggered by emotional stress/trauma. So acting out is actually is their way of dealing with(escaping) the stress/trauma. So trying to give that up and stay sober will be sub-conciously scary. Because you now will have to actually deal with the stress in s healthy manner. Which is much harder. And usually an addict has no clue how to deal with it.Or so I've read.