That's 11 days of closeness to Hashem that no one can take away from you.

You need to identify what led to the fall and what you can do to make sure that you dont find yourself in that situation again. Perhaps that is easier said than done, but you need to try to identify a step you can take.

eli

i was wondering why sometimes when we're doing (almost) everything right we still don't feel so good, and like we're growing spiritually. Possibly its because if we always felt so good when we're doing the right thing it might take away from our bechirah. Anyway KOT and like eli said every clean day is a precious jewel that none can take away so whether or not you feel like you're growing you definitely are. (and thats growing spiritually and in the struggle of lust)

Have you ever managed to acheive 11 days of freedom before. No!! Did you just accomplish the greatest days of your life? YES!!
Someone who acheives so much can surely do it again.
Please try again and dont give in, we must break the yetzar hora together. COME ON LET'S DO THIS!!!!!!!!
Do it for me and the whole GYE kehilla.

You're a tzaddik and you always will be!
B'ahava.

newbeginning wrote:

That is NOT true!!! You've just become madly close to HKBH! Those 11 days were worth more to Him than anything else! 11 days clean vs 1 day not- now who's the winner, you or the Yetzer Hara? Whatever happens DON'T GET DEPRESSED! Whenever I get depressed, I just go into a cycle of aveira... stay positive!

Hey everyone! I haven't been on GYE for a while so just to update everyone that today I put on tefillin in my shul minyan with the help of my Rebbe for the first time ever!! (except for my barmitzvah)

Mazel tov!!!

THATS a new beginning

hatzlocho.

Mazal Tov! May it be the first of many!

I felt the urge again earlier because my brother was out and his laptop has no filtering whatsoever, so I fell again! So annoying, I had no chance! Its just like a ticking time bomb, what can I do when I have so much temptations around me?

i have two unfiltered laptops belonging to members of my family.

first of all you should make some sort of kabbalah/neder not to use it or only use it in public etc.

second even with filters the struggle is there, the filters are just to make it a bit easier. we're always going to be tempted even if at home all we have are filtered computers, so the main part of recovery is getting back our self control and learning what to do when the urge hits. so while filters are a must they are also not the solution.

so having access to unfiltered internet is not something to hold you back from recovery just an additional area to work on which needs the work anyway.

hatzlacha

p.s. i'm 31 days clean bli ayin harah even though this was bein hazmanim (one of my hardest times) surrounded by unfiltered internet, so it's possible to do

I've decided to carry on with this thread, I have been away from GYE for many months, and I've decided that I need you guys in my fight against this!

I will be updating daily from now on!

1st day Clean

Hi Newby welcome back!

Shalom Chaver
Welcome Back
please keep us posted and i think make the count public on the forum so we will all share ur simcha that will be our simcha.
thanks for the clean day, we all felt that day easier

3 days clean so far! Studied for college exams this morning, then went to see my grandpa in the afternoon, now for some more studying... I need to try and fit in time for chumash!

5 days so far!