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Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 08 Apr 2013 20:30 #204499

Dov OFFLINE Administrator Posts: 1960 Karma: 383	Next time remove all suspicion that you are a holy goofball by just wearing a badge that says "Mechitza Man" at simchas. Actually, it is a great Purim outfit. A big 'M' on the chest and a long red Kapoteh. Too bad you'll forget it by next Adar... You know we all Love you, MT!
	"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 08 Apr 2013 20:46 #204509

reallygettingthere Current streak: 72 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 759 Karma: 27	Machshovo Tova wrote: Dov wrote: (Hey! Put that mechitzah curtain down!) Was I really the only tzaddik that cared about "vehaya machnecha kadosh", or was I the only messed up guy that was so easily triggered? MT Or perhaps both are true Or perhaps neither Or perhaps half of each
	Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up! No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 08 Apr 2013 20:53 #204512

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Machshovo Tova wrote:

Dov wrote:

(Hey! Put that mechitzah curtain down!)

Reminds me of recently when I attended a chassidish shabbos sheva brochos. Some women/girls kept moving away the mechitza curtain to peek into the men. I was the only one that kept running over to yell at them until they would close the curtain. And I sat there wondering: Was I really the only tzaddik that cared about "vehaya machnecha kadosh", or was I the only messed up guy that was so easily triggered?

MT

You made me laugh. I think many of us have been there.

I think to fully answer the question, you must read Harry's Son here www.guardyoureyes.org/forum/index.php?topic=1120.msg0 .

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 08 Apr 2013 20:59 #204519

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Machshovo Tova wrote:

OH MY GOD. Zeidyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
You REALLY do that?
I hope they were your daughters, or as "someone" always says "they were under three years old"...

And now for the next exciting revelation:
Dov wrote:

As the official Presiding Rov of GYE (when Emu, Guard, Zemmy, Me3, and Eye.balldude are unavailable - and we are still out on an expedition looking tor our lost Rebbe Bards)...

When was the hachtara?
because someone else once wrote:

beshem TZ, the chief halachic authority of the RealBardsville region

?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Last Edit: 09 Apr 2013 03:01 by TehillimZugger.

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 08 Apr 2013 22:40 #204546

reallygettingthere Current streak: 72 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 759 Karma: 27	Back in the late nineties I was trying to subtly convince my parents to get rid of the internet in our house because there is a lot a bad stuff that accessible on the web.(yes back then, in the days of dial up. The sound of a dial modem chchchchchchchchchchc ....... ping chchchchchchchch.... ping) Meanwhile I was already drowning in porn
	Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up! No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 08 Apr 2013 23:44 #204568

Machshovo Tova OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1230 Karma: 26	Dov wrote: You know we all Love you, MT! Thanks for the reminder, Dov. Reminds me of the recent Daf Yomi rule: אין למדין מן הכללות MT

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 08 Apr 2013 23:46 #204569

reallygettingthere Current streak: 72 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 759 Karma: 27	Machshovo Tova wrote: Reminds me of the recent Daf Yomi rule: אין למדין מן הכללות That was funny!
	Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up! No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 09 Apr 2013 22:14 #204697

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I made some strides today BH.

I saw something that triggered me. I averted my gaze and thought to myself, "@#$*! Do you really mean that I will never be able to enjoy that taavah again"

Then I thought to myself, "No, not for the rest of my life, just today " then I felt (a little) better.

In general though, I feel like I am being pulled towards the lust from far away. It's as if something far away is trying to pull me (with force) towards my taavah.

So I called someone to share how I was feeling (actually two bcz after the first guy didn't pick up i spoke to the second guy and then the first guy called back). This was the first time that I have ever done that.

Day 36

and we all know what 37 is :-)

Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up!

No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie

The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards

Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Last Edit: 09 Apr 2013 22:14 by reallygettingthere.

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 09 Apr 2013 23:04 #204709

TehillimZugger OFFLINE Platinum Boarder לבד הנשמה הטהורה Posts: 2446 Karma: 34	congrats
	?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 09 Apr 2013 23:13 #204711

ZemirosShabbos OFFLINE Platinum Boarder pass the compote Posts: 6153 Karma: 72	happy to hear of your progress! KUTGW is 37 the mispar koton of Flaum's sour pickles?
	Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise ~Inna beshem ZS Give, Forgive ~Cordnoy The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting. ~TZ

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 09 Apr 2013 23:32 #204722

reallygettingthere Current streak: 72 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 759 Karma: 27	ZemirosShabbos wrote: happy to hear of your progress! KUTGW thanks. I need to keep on reminding myself that You dont dropp a 25 year addiction that quickly. der taaveh is arein gkratzed in beiner One day at a time ZemirosShabbos wrote: is 37 the mispar koton of Flaum's sour pickles? Guess again
	Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up! No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 10 Apr 2013 00:00 #204732

ZemirosShabbos OFFLINE Platinum Boarder pass the compote Posts: 6153 Karma: 72	strength in the foundation?
	Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise ~Inna beshem ZS Give, Forgive ~Cordnoy The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting. ~TZ

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 10 Apr 2013 00:02 #204733

reallygettingthere Current streak: 72 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 759 Karma: 27	Ka-ching!
	Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up! No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 10 Apr 2013 00:23 #204736

reallygettingthere Current streak: 72 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 759 Karma: 27	And Casey Stengel's jersey number
	Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up! No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: My Story - Reallygettingthere 10 Apr 2013 00:37 #204738

ZemirosShabbos OFFLINE Platinum Boarder pass the compote Posts: 6153 Karma: 72	Then from 5,000 throats and more there rose a lusty yell; It rumbled through the valley, it rattled in the dell; It knocked upon the mountain and recoiled upon the flat, For Casey, mighty Casey, was advancing to the bat.
	Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise ~Inna beshem ZS Give, Forgive ~Cordnoy The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting. ~TZ