Congratulations, how are you doing!? How do you let go and let Hashem?

However you do it, one will not be able to even start as long as he or she still harbors the hope that they could actually do it themselves somehow.

So this is the way my brain works.  Really! 
    "Congrats, me... wow i am doing so well... perhaps .... I can REWARD myself with a little.... y'know..."


Agreed, no way *I* can do it... so thankfully we will all get through Shabos in one piece!


day 5!!

How are you doinng 5770?  stay strong and fight the yetzer hara!! don't focus too much on winning the war! take it one battle at a time! Wars are only won by battle after battle!
Keep on winning!!

day10 -  not thinking about p&&& whatsoever (trying to keep my eyes away from the CUTE frum ladies that seem to keep cropping up EVERYWHERE...) , mostly dealing with the inevitable chaos that ensues for days/weeks "post-p***" - - but good - VERY GOOD.  i hear Shabos is going to be BIG this weekend, looking forward to it.........

like your quote by the way!!
Mordechai wrote on 01 Nov 2011 10:46:

1- What do you mean by this coming Shabbos being big? Let me in on it please.

2- When you refer to a 'war being won', can you define what 'winning the war' exactly means? And when this victory occurs?

Thanks! Just curious.

Big Shabbos? - well I am just being optimistic.  I am assuming everyone everywhere is going to have a nice Shabos...we have a beautifu lunch lined up.. all very exciting stuff (i am easily excited :-))

Winning the war?  Again, you caught me on an optimsitic upswing. I guess when I get this and other things under control-ish, then I will be free to fight the next challenge.  Maybe?

Thanks, but I was really referring to this post by Mordechai:
Mordechai wrote on 01 Nov 2011 10:46:


It is a real question I am asking, not with 'pre'tensias', nor to make a point. Any answer?

sorry Dov, i am not 100% sure i understand your question :-)

Again, I was asking Mordechai, really, and not you - unless you and mordechai the same poster? Hey, stranger things than that have happened here...

Morderchai is big enough to respond for himself, or to ignore the question, too. No harm done either way and kol hakavod in any case!

I think there are some crossed wires here.  Dov, I think you asked 2 questions, one was certainly addressed to 5770.

Maybe quote the post you are referring to along with your questions.

So right you are! Sorry 5770....

It's hard for me to surrender the desire to press Mordechai for the answer to my little question. Gevalt. It seems to be my lust acting up again - lust for arguing because of the fantasy of being right. Nu. I don't feel that often, but why feel drawn to ask "Hey! Nu?!"? It's a lust of some kind, for sure. Maybe a lust to be useful, or a lust for me to be heard or understood by another.

NU. There are worse things I have the ability to lust after. But still: eez no good for me.

May I turn inward now, and turn to Hashem who is in me and around me, for me, and with me. Mordechai doesn't really need me, and I don't really need Mordechai. We need Hashem, who often gives us to know Him, through people...but it boils down to our relationship with Him.

I love my wife, my children, my parents, my fellow recovering perverts (which includes a few real friends), and my few real (normal) friends. I love yidden, and I love trees, mushrooms, the ocean, the taste of fried fish, ice cream, and lots of other things. 

... oooh while we're on the subject... i would add loving puppies, pizza (with mushrooms!) and a delicious cold beer.  Gut Shabos!

ok focus is definitely waning... getting a lot of free/alone time...

hoping if I post here it'll guilt me into keeping behaving

day 14

You mean, the results of acting out your lust don't hurt you badly enough yet?

One day you'll get there, if you need to. In the meantime, there is plenty support all around.

Hatzlocha!