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Re: hello everybody! 18 Sep 2013 20:03 #219562

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tehillimzugger wrote:

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Lately I've been quoting the Kohen Gadol (read: Matisyahu) a lot. I wrote these lyrics for the [chrismuka] song Miracle:

Just livin’ inna Fantasy
Internet Pornography
Online. I can surf- invincible.

No longer be invisble,
Born through the struggle,
Kept on movin’ through all this hustle

Heads up, heads down-
Through all of the bustle
Bardstown Kentucky, wanna flex your muscle

Look so down , look so puzzled
Get Up! Into
Truck And Ruwihl.

Bound to stumble and fall
My strength comes not from man at all
Bound to stumble and fall
I am powerless, yah that's all!

Do you believe in fantasies,
Am I hearing you? Am I seeing you?
The late nights,
Censored sites
And these sites killed my sight
They dragged me to the lowest "heights", those fantasies.

Against all odds Truck on till tomorrow.
Wipe away ya' tears and your sorrow.
Sunrise in the sky- like an arrow.
No need to worry- no need to cry.

Light up your mind, no longer be blind. Him who searches will find.
Leave your problems behind you, we will shine like a fire in the sky.
What’s the reason we’re alive?
Reason we’re alive?

Bound to stumble and fall
My strength comes not from man at all
Bound to stumble and fall
I am powerless, yah that's all!

Do you believe in fantasies,
Am I hearing you? Am I seeing you?
The late nights, Censored sites
And these sites killed my sight
And dragged me to the lowest "heights", those fantasies.

Internet is infinity,
Much more than what you know how to deal-
GYE is the light of continuity,
When your broken heart yearns to be free.

Do you believe in fantasies,
Am I hearing you? Am I seeing you?
The late nights, Censored sites
And these sites killed my sight
And dragged me to the lowest "heights", those fantasies.

Do you believe in fantasies,
Am I hearing you? Am I seeing you?
The late nights, Censored sites
And these sites killed my sight
And dragged me to the lowest "heights", those fantasies.

Do you believe in fantasies,
Am I hearing you? Am I seeing you?
The late nights, Censored sites
And these sites killed my sight
And dragged me to the lowest "heights", those fantasies.

I think it very aptly describes GYE, and that if Guard could get it professionally sung and recorded it would be a great advertisement, i can easily see it getting 100000 views on youtube within a week or so....

I like. it's on page five of this thread. Making chazara.

?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: hello everybody! 19 Sep 2013 00:11 #219571

reallygettingthere Current streak: 72 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 759 Karma: 27	tehillimzugger wrote: I had a fall last wednesday [shared it with a lot of people in real life but hadn't had a chance to update the oilam here]. Good Yom Tov! As my rabbeim used to say, "just go veiter" Good Yom Tov Eli
	Roy in the SA White Book noted that we frequently prayed and it did not work...because the best we could muster was begging G-d to "Please take it away, so I will not have to give it up! No amount of sobriety can cure the insanity -ChaimCharlie The emmes hurts but fake chizzuk will hurt more -Bards Remember, best block, no be there - Mr. Miyagi

Re: hello everybody! 30 Sep 2013 20:47 #219980

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Sunday Night.

Between mincha and maariv Leibish and I spoke lashon hara. After maariv I walked home with him continuing the lashon hara conversation. I got home and impatiently waited for my parents to leave. Got on Youtube. Watched some triggers. Watched some porn. Masturbated in middle. Watched a clean movie. Took a shower. Masturbated in middle. Went to bed. Masturbated. Woke up this morning. Masturbated.

Ho Hum.
The Story Of A Fall.

?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: hello everybody! 30 Sep 2013 20:50 #219984

TehillimZugger OFFLINE Platinum Boarder לבד הנשמה הטהורה Posts: 2446 Karma: 34	I'm here over two years, posted close to 2000 posts. I am being ridiculous.
	?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: hello everybody! 30 Sep 2013 20:52 #219985

Pidaini OFFLINE Platinum Boarder פדני מעושק אדם-מיצר הרע העושק את הבריות-רש"י Posts: 2189 Karma: 107	Aha, where did Leibish come into the picture? Good news is, you're alive, with a whole minute in front of you to decide what to do with it. Fell Shmell, the NOW is calling. Give it a big smile and fly away with it. KOT partner (no pun intended)!!!! Hashem is waiting for you!!
	Yankel \| My Ladder \| Talking to Hashem I'm just a dude, another guy on this bus. Have a great day, unless, of course, you made other plans. ~ obbormottel "Nothing changes as long as everything stays the same" ~ Dov

Re: hello everybody! 01 Oct 2013 03:56 #220029

inastruggle Current streak: 25 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder the picture is shimshon hagibor. not st. mary.... Posts: 1263 Karma: 35	What are you gonna change?

Re: hello everybody! 01 Oct 2013 23:55 #220080

dms1234 Current streak: 767 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1106 Karma: 49	TZ, its a brand new day, go for a walk and take a deep breath. Everything is going to be ok!! I miss you!
	I am happy to speak on the phone. Please email me at dms1234ongye@gmail.com My name is Daniel, I go to face to face meetings and I work the 12 steps with a sponsor.

Re: hello everybody! 03 Oct 2013 05:06 #220184

TehillimZugger OFFLINE Platinum Boarder לבד הנשמה הטהורה Posts: 2446 Karma: 34	inastruggle wrote: What are you gonna change? Maybe contact {HerNameHere}, and then her parents will find out and tell their Rabbi {WhoHappensToKnowThatIHaveIssues} who will know it's me. Then my family is gonna get involved and then I'll hit rock bottom and be ready for G-d to change me... Warning: Spoiler! Under serious consideration
	?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: hello everybody! 04 Oct 2013 19:30 #220308

ZemirosShabbos OFFLINE Platinum Boarder pass the compote Posts: 6153 Karma: 72	not sure exactly why, and i am very tired at the moment, but the plan sounds fishy. and not like the Skvere fish
	Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise ~Inna beshem ZS Give, Forgive ~Cordnoy The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting. ~TZ

Re: hello everybody! 04 Oct 2013 21:16 #220317

TehillimZugger OFFLINE Platinum Boarder לבד הנשמה הטהורה Posts: 2446 Karma: 34	Part of the plan has been implemented, then I called the Rabbi's son and told him what I did, then I emailed her, ummm. Whatever. I may have to leave for jail for a while, I hope to be back soon...
	?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: hello everybody! 05 Oct 2013 23:55 #220321

Pidaini OFFLINE Platinum Boarder פדני מעושק אדם-מיצר הרע העושק את הבריות-רש"י Posts: 2189 Karma: 107	Is that what you meant in your "status" when you wrote "leaving the forum [maybe]"?
	Yankel \| My Ladder \| Talking to Hashem I'm just a dude, another guy on this bus. Have a great day, unless, of course, you made other plans. ~ obbormottel "Nothing changes as long as everything stays the same" ~ Dov

Re: hello everybody! 06 Oct 2013 05:02 #220329

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Pidaini wrote:

Is that what you meant in your "status" when you wrote "leaving the forum [maybe]"?

Hit the nail on the head!

Yael Mermelstein wrote:

There was something inside of me begging something awful to learn a lesson the hard way.

-Moonlight, The Stolen Years, p.83

I think I succeeded in my quest to hit bottom after this whole incident with "Malki", Shabbos afternoon I was experiencing extreeeeeeeeeeeeeme RID, and my thoughts didn't even go to lust- I thought of getting drunk instead- I didn't, gtg bye

?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: hello everybody! 06 Oct 2013 05:23 #220330

skeptical OFFLINE Moderator Posts: 1118 Karma: 78	TZ! You think 2 years being on GYE makes you immune? We know getting on here that the impulse will not likely go away. Falling is not failing, as long as you don't give up. Get up, keep moving forward, and stay out of isolation!
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Re: hello everybody! 06 Oct 2013 06:02 #220336

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GUITAR!!
We're all here with you.

!אנא עבדא דקודשא בריך הוא

וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל

"If it would be so easy there wouldn't be a GYE, but if it would be impossible there also wouldn't be a GYE."
"Sometimes a hard decision leads to an easier outcome."
- General Grant

My story: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/111583-hello-my-friends

Re: hello everybody! 06 Oct 2013 06:51 #220342

dms1234 Current streak: 767 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1106 Karma: 49	Does this mean the next oink meaning will be in prison??
	I am happy to speak on the phone. Please email me at dms1234ongye@gmail.com My name is Daniel, I go to face to face meetings and I work the 12 steps with a sponsor.