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Re: Back on Track's trekking along 11 Oct 2011 14:27 #121756

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wow, BOT, that sounds like a toughie

when i spoke to my wife about things it also put me off kilter for a while. i went for a drive and talked to myself and the RBSO to try and straighten out my mind.

in my half-humble opinion, you will be all the better for the experience. and i think the wife will respect you all the more for your striving.
ata ben adam tov, tamshich trucking
Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise
~Inna beshem ZS

Give, Forgive
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The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting.
~TZ
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Re: Back on Track's trekking along 11 Oct 2011 23:17 #121845

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Thanks gevurah. Yes my wife has known for a few years and has been the main support behind me getting started in recovery. I realize now that I have been ble to grow to a point where I can build myself as well  she continues to help me in this and I'd never be where I am in reocvery if not for her believing in me. The issue is that I've been technically sober as in not m* for 165 days now. (Before that I had stretsches of sobritwy since janaury of this year as well.
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Re: Back on Track's trekking along 12 Oct 2011 11:53 #121876

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Quiet around here lately.... Hellooooooooooo!? Anybody home!?
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Re: Back on Track's trekking along 12 Oct 2011 13:16 #121882

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I'm busy making the door of my sukkah bigger so my truck can fit in  ;D

BTW, is a truck that is taller than 20 Amos kosher?
!אנא עבדא דקודשא בריך הוא

וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל


"If it would be so easy there wouldn't be a GYE, but if it would be impossible there also wouldn't be a GYE."
"Sometimes a hard decision leads to an easier outcome."
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Re: Back on Track's trekking along 12 Oct 2011 14:35 #121885

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BOT, the guys are out hunting elephants for the sukkah walls
Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise
~Inna beshem ZS

Give, Forgive
~Cordnoy

The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting.
~TZ
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Re: Back on Track's trekking along 16 Oct 2011 02:14 #121934

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Aha! I should have figured that out myself. We enjoyed a gevaldige date, esrog and willow leaf chulent sprinkled with a dash of myrtle. Bh our sukka stayed standiung bec. We crazy glued it togeether so tightly. One of our neighbors was just as fastidious in making his sukka strong where he built it on his porch. The only problem was that whule his sukka stayed standing, his porch blew away!
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Re: Back on Track's trekking along 16 Oct 2011 02:16 #121935

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Bot is bh clean abt 171 days now. Wow. One day @ a time
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Re: Back on Track's trekking along 18 Oct 2011 12:10 #122097

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2day is day 173. Bh I am sober till now.
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Re: Back on Track's trekking along 18 Oct 2011 14:23 #122102

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MAZEL TOW ON THE 173 8)
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Re: Back on Track's trekking along 23 Oct 2011 16:58 #122227

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Thanks. I hit 180 over yom tov. This was very special to me as it was 2x90 (for those who cpuldnt figure the math right). My 90th day was absolute- hell on earth for me. I made it through sober bh, and remained so till now... But always felt a bit bad that I didn't get to enjpy that day. The real trick though is to enjpy every day now....
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Re: Back on Track's trekking along 23 Oct 2011 20:26 #122249

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BOT,
180 without m* is awesome!  Don't settle for this, though.  Keep whittling away at ALL lust -- sights, thoughts, actions.  Are you ready to commit to giving up lust?  It's actually easier that way.
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Re: Back on Track's trekking along 24 Oct 2011 04:52 #122279

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U can say that again. I am trying to completely eradicate p* from my life right now. I can't say I am able to undertake the task of battling all my lustful thoughts some of which involve my wife etc... But I can say that being pornless since Rosh Hashana has given me a real boost in this area. As we know, the less u feed it the less hungry it is. I pray that w/ time I can not 'miss' p* as I still do. I say this cuz, although I have a desire, I don't feel my life is lacking satisfaction w/out m*. (With G's help of course). But p*.... I still feel a lack w/out. I am trying to deal with this and see how/what steps to take to grow in this area. Speaking w/ my wife and recovery buddies seems to hild a lot of the answers.... Thanks for dropping by my thread alex.
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Re: Back on Track's trekking along 24 Oct 2011 09:04 #122297

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well if you feel that you cant win this battle of lusting for p***, why not ask hashem:
"please help me to clean my mind that i shouldnt lust for improper thoughts"
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Re: Back on Track's trekking along 24 Oct 2011 13:15 #122309

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Hey BOT ur doing great! You will see after a while you won't miss it anymore. And the less you look at stuff the easier it will be to stop the thoughts too.

KOMT!!! and keep those huge eyes wheels nice and shiny!

Gevura!
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וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל


"If it would be so easy there wouldn't be a GYE, but if it would be impossible there also wouldn't be a GYE."
"Sometimes a hard decision leads to an easier outcome."
- General Grant


My story: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/111583-hello-my-friends
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Re: Back on Track's trekking along 24 Oct 2011 15:02 #122325

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Hi BOT, mazel tov on your beautiful numbers
keep on rocking and rolling, you are da man
Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise
~Inna beshem ZS

Give, Forgive
~Cordnoy

The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting.
~TZ
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