I didn't want to update my streak, 50 sounds bland. 

I should've left it on 47, I like that number.

alex94 wrote on 27 Aug 2025 18:00:

And, for a high-impact low-effort way to flesh out that connection pillar, consider joining the vaad.
Definitely also talk to some of those people. 

Bland?? 50 days bland?? Yosef, are you serious?! Five-zero holy days FIFTY!! not some random number on a clock. Every single one of those days is packed with fire, with wins, with gevurah!! You didn’t just sit there, you fought through pain, through urges, through the hardest tests — and you came out standing taller than ever. 47 is cute, but 50? That’s a crown of victory. In my humble eyes, you’re not just winning streaks, you’re rewriting what it means to be strong. You're a living proof!!

And seriously… if 50 looks bland to you, I don’t even know what to say. by 75 you’ll say, ‘Meh, could’ve been 73

At this rate, by the time you hit 100, you’ll probably complain the number is too round!

Yosef, hope the wedding could change your mood to Simcha and from there things should start going uphill, after all Hashem sees that you're truly going out of the way and he will for sure repay you, just sometimes it takes a bit longer... please don't lose your patience

remember that Yom Hachipa is like Yom Kipur to all family members so what a special day... you have the privilege to ask from Hashem anything special, so please have all your GYE friends in mind too.

Reb Yosef if you have a Rebbe who can keep a check on you so you don't jump off the deep end I would say move far far away across an ocean if you have to. Don't take the abuse.

53!

Just about entering "Gan" Eden!

The past few days was one big Chulent of emotions. Sad and happy, depressed and dancing, crying from happiness and laughing from nostalgia, loneliness and blessings.

The biggest blessing is that I'm more emotionally present then ever.

yosefthetzadik wrote on 31 Aug 2025 19:00:

53!!!!! Wow that's a ton of days to be clean. So happy for you. May things only get better for you moving forward.

Hatzlacha Raba!

stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 31 Aug 2025 19:05:

Lol.

Thanks for the Bracha. וכן למר!

yosefthetzadik wrote on 31 Aug 2025 19:00:

Tzadik, 
I am very proud of you. You have shown yourself that you CAN get over this! The streak is important just for that thought to reach your brain. You have shown a few times that nothing bad happens when you abstain. Yes, its hard and it hurts, but you can get thru it!
Another thing is that you are finally getting in touch with your emotions, THAT.IS.AMAZING!. Life if very colorful and it can hurt a lot. You have suffered a lot and you are still suffering. My heart goes out for you. BUT, remember that Hashem created you for a purpose and it wasn't just to suffer, because He loves you, and He wants only good things for you. I know its hard to see that now. Keep tugging along, keep you head straight, keep doing whats good, and one day, hopefully in the near future, you will be able to see how everything you have gone thru has been to build you into the person you are and the person that you are becoming. Because what doesnt kill us makes us stronger. You are a VERY strong person and you are VERY capable. You have a special mission in life, something that NOBODY else can do, only you!. The only thing you can do now is stay holy, stay sane, stay strong. 
Find some good shiurim on Emuna and Bitachon and work on that. You perspective will change! 
Hashem should bless you will everlasting happiness and shefa both physical and spiritual. 

Day 56. Struggle is very hard today.

I'm not feeling well, maybe a virus.

Motivation is starting to fade. Strong urges. Loneliness. Stress. Depression. 


Hashem help me please!!!

You’re an inspiration!
My longest streak was 40 days 
now I’m trying to beat a week 

keep strong and B”H K.O.M.T. 

yosefthetzadik wrote on 03 Sep 2025 04:48:

Go get yorself a good kosher book and get lost in it. If your not feeling well, rest up and relax. Nothing will happen unless you make it happen. If you have an urge, let it pass. Nobody can force you to fall, realize that you have a choice. You know how you will feel if you choose holiness. You know the other option. You will feel infinitely worse. 
Stay with us, Tzaddik

you will get there, take small baby steps, look at each day not the long term goal.....

Yossef, do me a favor and COME ON! Ok??!!

You’re a big boy… you’re not gonna let yourself down now. You don’t need me to tell you that this UGLY YH is the one playing you! He took things up a notch, you can see it yourself if you read through your recent posts — you’re hanging on in a war zone inside.

And yes… it feels like he’s stronger than you, right? Sure, he’s got muscles. He’s been in this game for a long time, and unfortunately he’s had plenty of “wins” with some weaklings. But with you???!!! No way.

Come on brother! Show me your fist! Right now. Not scrolling, not later — now. Make a fist. A strong one! … Nuuuu… what are you waiting for??

YES! This is it! Hold it tighter, stronger — slam it into the air in front of you! Maybe it looks silly, who cares. I’ve done crazier, and I’m still standing. Stand up tall, shoulders back, laugh in the world’s face!

You’re only a short stretch away from hitting your 60th day. And Yossef — if you quit now, you’ll be the loser, left in the mud. The rest of us will keep moving forward without sparing a thought for broken excuses. The decision is right here, right now. Are you staying ahead or falling behind?

I don’t need your updates. I’ll see you Sunday with exciting emojis for your 60th day streak!

(60???!!! For real???!!! WOW!! How did you make this?? You’re insanely strong! You’re a gladiator!)