I am just starting my journey today. It is very hard for me to come to terms with my struggle. I am a person in a position of influencing others and I feel like a traitor when I act out. I have come to the realization that I am still that great person who inspires others and I just have a major issue. I need and will deal with it.
Please encourage me along the way

Mrmgwinner90 wrote on 08 Feb 2018 17:30:

Hello, welcome!

Kudos to you for taking the first step, that in itself is a great accomplishment. Read through other's stories here and you will see you are not alone, there are plenty of great people who struggle with this. That feeling of living a lie is all too familiar, God willing you will succeed.

There's a great bunch of people here who only want the best for you, we're all in this together. Keep posting!

Mrmgwinner90 wrote on 08 Feb 2018 17:30:

Well said. What type of encouragement are you looking for?
Hatzlacha and keep posting.

welcome i think that took real gevura to post ,no rushing , but maybe youll feel better if you give over your story.i personaly have not gave over my story, at least in public ,but whenever i do ,i feel  a big burden lifted.
  hatzlacha!

Welcome. It should be with hatzlocha. I experienced the same contradiction in my life. Advising and influencing others in what I knew was right but living that secret dark "other life". This place saved me and iyh you will be helped too. Maybe without identifying details, writ some more info so we get a clearer picture.

welcome to the right place the contradiction is a commen fealing around here as we start but i found that once you are serious about youre change it will dispate quiet fast as for your position of influence i beleive we will greatlly enjoy having your presence here and there will be many things you can pick up here from the great people around that will enchance the influence you have on others in the outside world

Welcome!

Hey welcome!
Hatzlacha!

Welcome, I can relate to your feelings and I believe many can,
I believe that by opening up to a safe person and in a safe place you can slowly rid yourself from those feelings,
keep on working with gye and soon you 'll be able to influence others in this aspect as well.
Getting out of isolation is a strong factor in helping us to live with ourselves and to get us stronger to battle this difficult struggle
keep on posting and wish you lots of success

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