WELCOME! Read the handbook and keep posting. We are all in the same boat.

After an excruciating day I have finally began to understand how powerless I am. I cannot break free on my own accord, but only by the will of G-d. I feel like John Nash in the movie "A Beautiful Mind." He had a mental illness, schizophrenia, and ultimately the only way to overcome it was to NOT fight it. By fighting it he was giving reality to his delusions. Instead he had to ignore the delusions to the best of his ability. I think it is the same with lust. In a way it is just a delusion. I need to ignore it, not fight it.

Actually you are very right by saying that. It is the same thing. Do you think it would be better to say that I should change HOW I fight, but not IF I fight??? Like using distraction as a weapon, rather than self-talk??? What you said makes a lot if sense and I thank you for helping me redefine my understanding.

Thank you for helping me articulate this. This process of critiquing, clarifying and articulating what I mean ultimately determines how well I understand the topic.
By self talk (self talk is not the word for it) I meant trying to talk yourself out of it, or in a better sense, argue or engage with the yetzer hara.
But you are right, sometimes the Yezer Hara is too strong to ignore, and to smart to argue with. Sometimes I can't win. Instead of surrendering to the Yetzer Hara, I should surrender to G-d. I should just say,"G-d, I can't fight this anymore take over from here."

What was the movie about?

The movie was about John Nash, the famous mathematician. Awesome movie. I won't spoil it for you.