Excellent ! the ledger has two sides .Assets and liabilities. For some reason human nature is to focus only at the liabilities side of the ledger. Big mistake; G.od gave us our assets to use them as tools when dealing with our character defects.
KUTGW !

At first I thought it is incumbent upon me,to remember a chapter in ancient history.

Then I came to the realization, that I am part of that very nation,if not for Hashem’s salvation, would be doomed to eternal slavedom.

Then it hit me, that this just cannot be,that this true reality, should be bound to physicality.

Of my soul precious than gold, it has been told,into slavery it has been sold, in the body so bold.

At first I defined, that by leaving this bind,his mercy so kind, myself I shall find.

The truth – speaker states, that leaving the straits, is by letting myself dissipate, and into Him to integrate.

First reminder that I'm still (a sick) human after Rosh Hashonoh.

I will not be posting consistently in the future for tomorrow I'm having a change of enviroment with no regular access to the internet, but if I do use the internet I"ll make sure to pop in to my internet home GYE.

Hello everyone I'm back, fell twice just from memories, I gues abstaining from Internet use isn't the soloution other protective measures have to. be put in place.

What are you protecting yourself from?

That is called euphoric recall in SA parlance and is very common. Just entertaining those thoughts is a form of acting out. Avoiding the initial thought may not be possible, but not dwelling on them is. Some of the ways to not dwell on them is to surrender the thoughts to hashem, pray to Hashem for their removal, pray for the well being of the person you are thinking about and look at them as a human being and not a sex object. This is also the reason that, as you have pointed out, it's not enough to live a life of avoidance of lust. Positive sobriety is necessary for many of us. If I'm living life as a sober man, it's a lot easier to be obsessed with lustful thoughts. The fantasies are just pas nisht.