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Re: It's a new year, and it is time I started posting 15 Oct 2014 06:15 #241342

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Hatzlacha raba! It may also help to join an SA group.

Re: It's a new year, and it is time I started posting 20 Oct 2014 14:37 #241487

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Hatzileini Na wrote:
Hey everyone,

I fell badly over the first days of Yom Tov and fell 3 days in a row, something I had not done in a very long time. (The few times I'd fallen in the previous year, I was always able to bounce back and move forward.)

I was sick pretty much the first days of Yom Tov and between not feeling well and not sleeping I got into trouble.

Over the last few I've been doing a lot of thinking and I feel like I may want to go speak to a professional. Feeling pretty down now, but I think that it's an important realization. Well beyond this issue (not that this is not important in it of itself) there are things I've been carrying for way too long, and I think that sorting those out may help all around...


sounds like a good move to me. [I should continue with my professional; haven't done so in some time.]

Keep us posted please.

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If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


Disclaimer: I am not a cheerleader; B"H, there are many on the site. I am here to change myself, and with God's help, by some mistake, I might even help change others.

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Re: It's a new year, and it is time I started posting 25 Oct 2014 01:20 #241960

cordnoy wrote:
Hatzileini Na wrote:
Hey everyone,

I fell badly over the first days of Yom Tov and fell 3 days in a row, something I had not done in a very long time. (The few times I'd fallen in the previous year, I was always able to bounce back and move forward.)

I was sick pretty much the first days of Yom Tov and between not feeling well and not sleeping I got into trouble.

Over the last few I've been doing a lot of thinking and I feel like I may want to go speak to a professional. Feeling pretty down now, but I think that it's an important realization. Well beyond this issue (not that this is not important in it of itself) there are things I've been carrying for way too long, and I think that sorting those out may help all around...


sounds like a good move to me. [I should continue with my professional; haven't done so in some time.]

Keep us posted please.

b'hatzlachah


It's hard to actually make that phone call, and it seems like I usually start doing ok when I decide I should go in that direction.

Getting back to a more normal schedule has helped and things have been going pretty well B"H.

Gut Shabbos to all.

Re: It's a new year, and it is time I started posting 09 Nov 2014 10:19 #242971

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WELCOME! I have been reeeeeally busy lately and haven't posted much (and that may continue until after sukkos ). I just wanted to welcome you. It's hard for me to remember my first post, but I remember I was very nervous. It has definitely changed my life for the better (you can look at what my current post number is)!

I have some good links in my signature. You say "as someone who has spent a lifetime trying to understand what makes me tick so that I can improve". Would you call yourself a perfectionist? I am, but I have learned to "let go" a lot and not stress out about things so much. If you answer "yes", you may want to check out Dr. Sortzkin's website (you may want to check it out regardless). It helped me a lot. I have a link in my signature.

Don't look back, keep posting. The chevra here is great!


I decided to go back and read through the posts in this thread for Chizuk. When I came your thread Gibbor120 again this time it caught my attention because I do think I struggle with perfectionism.

One of the challenges for me is that I have not found a way to remain vigilant in some areas while letter go of perfectionism in others. In the past when I have tried to "be easier on myself" I have found that I quickly spiral into negative behaviors and this seems to be the reality in so many areas of my life. I know the perfectionism is not healthy, but I'm just not sure how to safely relax it.

I've read a couple of the articles but did not see anything that particularly addressed this point. Do you know of one?

Thanks!

Re: It's a new year, and it is time I started posting 10 Nov 2014 22:05 #243071

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You make a good point, and I have struggled with that question as well.

If you have read and/or listened to Dr. Sorotzkin, I'm not sure how much I can add. I will try anyway. One thing that helped me was to realize that I am not in control. I can do G-d's will to the best of my ability, and that's all.

A lot of perfectionism is based on feeling low. So, if I am perfect no one (including G-d) can have tainos on me. Then I get stressed because, hard as I try, I am not perfect, and I'm trying to escape the wrath of Hashem and people. So-and-so over there learns better than me. This one has more money. This one has is more popular, or has a nicer voice. The list is endless.

If I focus on serving G-d to the best of MY ability, with the talents that G-d gave ME, and let go of my stress. The more I realize that all I can do is try, and the outcome is in Hashem's hand, the less stress I feel.

I'll give a fictional example. I'd like to be on time to shul. So, I keep checking my watch, I want to leave at a certain time. Then one of the kids needs something, so I yell, because I'm uptight, because I HAVE to be on time. I mean the KING is waiting for me. I put tons of pressure on myself. The light is turning red so I plow through and almost hit a pedestrian and cause a chillul Hashem.

Instead, I can say. I was going to be on time, but one of my children, one of Hashems children needs something. What is the right decision right now? To take care of him. I am running late. It's ok. I can't control everything. The light turned red, and I will be even later. Again, there's nothing I can do. It's out of my control.

I hope I illustrated a certain mindset. When I change my mindset to do what Hashem wants right now, my stress level goes way down. When I think I have to make it to shul or Hashem will be angry with me, I'm not really serving Hashem. I'm worried about my own schar v'onesh.

Some of this is hard to convey in words. I hope it helps.

Re: It's a new year, and it is time I started posting 28 Nov 2014 03:51 #244240

Gibbor

Thanks for the thoughts. I'm hoping one day I can "make sense" of the balance between striving from a positive place and striving from a negative place. I saw a study that distinguished between 2 types of ambition, I'll have to try and dig it up and see if this time around I can comprehend.

All that said, I'm trying to focus on doing the right thing. "Giving myself over to Hashem" as I understand it, when I'm having a hard time etc. B"H things seem to be going pretty ok. I realized I mostly post when things seem really down, so I figure Thanksgiving is a good time to post that B"H things are going ok. Thanks to everyone who has posted in the past and I appreciate anyone who takes the time to read and post going forward.

Re: It's a new year, and it is time I started posting 28 Nov 2014 04:23 #244241

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I know from myself that it's easier for me to make productive changes and initiatives when I am on a high.

b'hatzlachah
My email: thenewme613@hotmail.com
My threads:
GYE Handbook | Gibbor's Insights | GYE FAQ - Thanks Skep and DMS123456789 White Book | Big Book (Alcoholics Anonymous)

If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


Disclaimer: I am not a cheerleader; B"H, there are many on the site. I am here to change myself, and with God's help, by some mistake, I might even help change others.

MY POSTS ARE NOT WRITTEN AS A MODERATOR UNLESS EXPLICITLY STATED.

Re: It's a new year, and it is time I started posting 25 Dec 2014 04:43 #245732

Wanted to stop by and post. B"H things have been going pretty well for me. Taking things a day at a time, but also trying to do what I need to, to move myself forward in a positive fashion. I started speaking to a therapist and God-willing that will help. B"H I think I've been moving forward in many areas of life and just hope and pray it continues.

Thanks to all for the ongoing support. I hope to be more active here with other members as well providing Chizuk instead of just taking.

Re: It's a new year, and it is time I started posting 12 Jan 2015 01:12 #246996

Just passed 90 days, though not concerned that this will mean that the challenge will just disappear

In fact, the last couple of days have been the hardest in the last few months.

I came hear to post in my thread, but jumped to a few other threads and read the struggles some others have been having and tried to offer some Chizuk and it seems like that has helped me get into a better frame of mind B"H.

The journey will continue on one day at a time Bez"H.

Re: It's a new year, and it is time I started posting 12 Jan 2015 03:06 #247006

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Mazel tov! Hetzileini, you have reached Tzadik days, may Hashem give you many years as a real Tzadik, day by day, Amen.
הסיבה שיש דברים קשים העוברים עליך היא בגלל שהאדם חושב כי "אני עומד" שהוא מנהל הכל,
ברגע שיתן הכנעה כי השי"ת מנהיג הכל אז כבר אפשר להתמודד עם הקשיים. שמעתי מאדם גדול

If life is a LEMON make LEMONADE

Thank You Hashem for every moment of Sobriety!

Re: It's a new year, and it is time I started posting 12 Jan 2015 12:29 #247035

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MAZEL TOV HN!!!!

Your doing great.

KUTGW!!!

Re: It's a new year, and it is time I started posting 27 Jan 2015 22:47 #247719

Slipped...

As I posted earlier in the thread, I often have trouble sleeping. A few nights ago I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep. Laying in bed unable to sleep for hours I ended up slipping.

On one hand I am comfortable with the idea that what happened happened and there's nothing I can do about that. (And I wasn't looking at anything inappropriate etc.) I've put a bit of thought into how to prevent this from occurring in the future and am in a good frame of mine.

At the same time I'm kind of bummed because I didn't want to "break the streak" even though I know that that's not what really matters.

It's really silly, but I actually stayed away from the site for quite a few days because I did not want to reset my number. So stupid, but whatever... onwards and upwards.

Re: It's a new year, and it is time I started posting 27 Jan 2015 23:12 #247721

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You are amongst friends - no matter what happens.

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GYE Handbook | Gibbor's Insights | GYE FAQ - Thanks Skep and DMS123456789 White Book | Big Book (Alcoholics Anonymous)

If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


Disclaimer: I am not a cheerleader; B"H, there are many on the site. I am here to change myself, and with God's help, by some mistake, I might even help change others.

MY POSTS ARE NOT WRITTEN AS A MODERATOR UNLESS EXPLICITLY STATED.

Re: It's a new year, and it is time I started posting 27 Apr 2015 04:57 #253166

It's been a while since I've posted, and it's been a really strange time for me.

Things had been extremely stressful for a while (coming from all directions) and I found myself gravitating to watching things I definitely should not have on my phone. As strange as it might sounds, my phone was never really a trigger for me. I had had a filter for a while but it was incredibly frustrating to use, so I got rid of it a while back, and was fine. Recently that seems to have changed. Somehow discovering there was a "private" option on the iPhone changed things.

Searching on this site I found the way to set strong limitations on the search function for the iPhone (using the child restrictions and the like) and while it has been a bit limiting in other areas, I know it is a small sacrifice for my sanity.

Meanwhile, somehow at the same time, I've been finding ways to break through positively in other areas. I've been doing more socializing, putting in efforts to have fun and find ways to de-stress, and overall I've been actually pretty happy with the growth in these areas over the last couple of months. It almost feels as if I am allowing myself to not be such a perfectionist, but to work to find joy in my life knowing that the more I can do so, and the more I can be engaged in positive things, the easier other struggles will become.

I'm really kind of confused as far as what to make of these seemingly contradictory happenings as I certainly don't want to be fooling myself and using these "changes" as a means to slip in other areas.

I've fallen quite a bit over the last little while, helped along by some very challenging circumstances (to me anyways) but B"H I feel like I can take this and grow from it.

Thanks to all who still take the time to stop and read and empathize.

Re: It's a new year, and it is time I started posting 03 May 2015 11:24 #253728

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Welcome back to posting, don't be a stranger!

A couple of things that I've found helpful are:

1) Being happy, finding things to be happy about

2) Staying connected even during tough times

Hatzlacha!
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