A few things I learned from my recent fall of being clean on the 90 days challenge.
1. It seemed like I was a dry drunk for most of the part. (I shouldn’t put my accomplishment down, but I feel like I had the wrong intentions throughout the 90 day challenge.)
2. I still haven’t learned how to take one day at a time. I would like to learn because I feel like this way I’ll have most understanding.
3. Even though I physically restrained from acting out, I didn’t realize that my thoughts were of lust and I didn’t really guard my eyes. I hope to work on this ability in the future.
4. I think it is equally important to focus on what do to instead of not to do.
5. Someone posted that “Opening up to real people is possibly the single most powerful step you can take towards recovery” so I guess I have to do that through phone.

There are so many benefits to staying clean, it's almost hard to believe. Are any of you guys shocked at the results of sobriety? Life became like a lot better.

I fell again after 27 days. I need someone who I can contact daily that would help me stay clean for longest possible. Any takers? I'm a nice and honest person.

HI,

I have just read through your thread. I admire your resolute and determination.

Your introductory post is very interesting. It is very similar to Roe K's story in the White book of SA. He too describes how he lost his childhood to fantasy and masturbation, and grew up disconnected from reality and people.

In your posts you do not write what else you are doing for your sobriety but it seems that you must deal with those issues. Otherwise you will ultimately reach for your drug again.

May G-d grant us sobriety, sanity and serenity.

Just fell again and I feel like I'm going crazy.



1. I don't feel like labeling myself "an addict" because it just makes me feel so much worse about myself and who I am.
2. I listened to the 12 pm conference call and learned that in each present moment we have two choices, one to take and the other is to give. Once we start taking from G-d through lust and addictions we never get satisfied. The only way to live is to start giving, I guess, which makes our infinite soul satiated, so to speak. But what makes me angry is that everyone else is taking while I feel like I have to be the only one giving.
3. I realized that I don't feel as guilty when I didn't use por* but still mast****.
4. In the past I tried to really stay away from mas**** and por* but I never really tried to push away lustful thoughts when they came to me. And, I didn't try to watch my eyes as much because I figured that "looking" at girls won't make a different is how I act but I guess all the tension added up.
5. I didn't try to not flirt with girls. I still flirted because I didn't think it would make my ability to stay clean harder.

Eating a stake is not taking from God obviously. You're talking apples and oranges here. Food is necessary but self-absorption is not necessary.

I realize that sobriety is forever and not for 90 days. Its a lifestyle of energy and connection to society and to the world. I'd like to work on connecting to friends so I won't have to find myself depressed, alone and down.

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I feel like I have benefited greatly from being clean. My ultimate goal is to be clean for life or at least that's what I'd like. I do agree that it's more important to take one moment at a time but I like the results from long term sobriety. I've realized that the most important thing is to not be bothered by a fall or two, but take each moment after that to live to the fullest.

Life is made up of many one moments at a time.
Keep up the good work

The benefits of being clean are awesome. Everyone needs to know about the tools that are out there that can help them. The more I am clean the more I feel confident.

I am on another streak of 27 days clean and I honestly love and an I'm very exited about it. My life seems to be in order again because my confidence grew tremendously and I go out with friends way more. I feel more alive and involved in my relationships and in daily life. My goal is to take one day at a time to be clean for life. But one thing goes through my mind is regret that I didn't start being sober while in high school it could have been so much more of a good time. Anyway I hope to keep living one day and one moment at a time through out this.