I have been clean for 27 days and it feels great.

I have realized how much of a creep I feel like I was when I was lusting. It is weird that I didn't realize that when I was lusting, I only realized after I became clean.

I was wondering if any of you guys feel weirded out when your in public and then you realize that you have so much information about yourself somewhere online, hidden.

When I first started on this path I became more sensitive to my lusting, I said, wow all this attention on guarding my eyes is causing me to stare at every woman on the street. Then I realized, I was always staring at every woman on the street, I was just so anesthetized to it that I didn't even notice. That made me feel like a real creepy pervert.

Good thing I noticed now, because otherwise it would have been embarrassing for a long time.

Also, I've reached 30 days clean. I feel like I can do anything. Love the clarity and energy.

Careful....you have to remember who we are and how far we can still fall. Now matter how many days we are clean. We always have to be mindful

Almost 40 days clean and I'm feeling great.
So much more has changed!

50 days clean and a lot of things have changed.
I talk more, there is more energy around me, I'm not afraid to be open and vulnerable and one of the best things is I don't give a care about what people think about me anymore, because I feel like I have that confidence within, therefor I don't look for anyone's approval which is an amazing level of confidence.
I've realized before, that in the past when I fell, I immediately started looking at others for approval and confidence and it just weird-ed them out.

A few things tho:
1.In a way, I regret being so honest on these forums, haha, because it made me so much vulnerable to criticism and rejection. I'm sure I couldn't meet anyone of you guys and look you in the eye without feeling very weird.

One question for you guys is how open and vulnerable can you be. I feel like someone who can be most transparent and open, like speaking thoughts honestly as they are thought, is a strong person. Stronger than anyone else. So lets hear it, what are you hiding from the world that no one else knows but you?

WOW!!! Incredible, Keep it Up!

Fell on the 88th day. its sad. so depressing.

and don't forget its also amazing you kept clean for 87 full days i could just imagine how many times you had to overcome a urge or controlling your eyes, so brush it off and start trucking again,

Im going to be blunt. I can see youre true intentions. You want 90 days!!!!! "YAYAYAY. WAHOOOO. I reached 90 days, YAYAY. I DID iIT! I REACHED IT!. "

Thats right. I don't know if you want the prestige or just to get over the lust obstacle and get on with the rest of your life. Clearly you didnt want to TRULY recover.

TRULY recovering means living day by day and if we slip or even fall were not depressed because we know its just a little bump in the road. AND we are imperfect. We know we aren't able to jump on to the top rung of the ladder. We have to get step by step. Sometimes we slip and end up on a lower rung but thats okay because we just get right back up to where we were and keep going.

You really did incredible and i hope you will learn what you did wrong, patch things up and carry forward.

KOL!!!!

I don't know how you know his true intentions to be so blunt.

I do have to admit that I didn't take one day at a time, and the reason is that I just wanted to reach the 90 days. Well I guess now i need to learn how to truly take one day at a time.

DMS1234: My apologies.

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Nope, you are absolutely right. I shouldn't assume like that. I am sorry Joenoahi. I shouldn't have jumped to any conclusions.

Its ok DMS123, your just showing your point of view.