Okay I am clean for 5 days. It has been getting a little easier, compared to the first couple of days. I think despite the fact that I have quite before. This is the first time that I have decided to stop cold turkey. With the help of coming back on gye and posting my success I hope that I will keep strong.

Okay, I am sitting at my computer. I am thinking about masturbating. B"H, I am holding back. I am almost 7 days clean. It helps to log onto gye and type a message. My urge is still here but I am channeling it to other things. Time to get busy!

YES IT IS! good job, (ill tell you a secret of mine... Sometimes I used to just go on to gye and then that was my excuse to be online and once i was there I would surf and then BAM there I go again... so maybe make a kabala for the next 24 hours not to use a computer or no tv and be BUSY BUSY BUSY do you have a hobby? if not there are some people here who could teach you how to hunt for possums!)


KEEP up the GOOD WORK friend!

shlomoanonymous wrote on 29 Oct 2012 14:08:


Thoughts of masturbation are also sexual thoughts. You can surrender these thoughts just as well.

I agree that getting busy is an important component of your recovery.

Have a great, clean day!

Thank you everyone,
In the end my day was extremely busy and I kept strong. I don't think I have ever quite like I have now. In the past I would make alot of compromises. I can watch tv as long as nothing bad. After a couple of days I would be back to watching the wrong things.
The last time I failed was because I told myself It's okay to touch myself as long as I don't actually release. After a couple of days...
This time I am saying I won't do it at all because it would end up leading to the same results.
Okay I am on day 8 and B"H I am keeping strong!

That's the spirit! You finally figured it out. Just stay away from any type of lust, without looking for heterim of any sort. One sip is one too much - it's the beginning of the end.

Hatzlacha

MT

Yup. Cut the Y"H off at the pass. Early detection and surrender make this whole thing much easier. Actually, they make it possible.

Have a good Shabbos! I am clean for 10 days

Great! I 'will' have a good Shabbos, knowing that you're trucking along (in your Shabbos truck). Have a holy - and pure - Shabbos, and may it bring blessings for the future as well.

MT

10 days! Awesome!

Good Shabbos

-Eli

Okay, I am now on day 23 and going strong. I guess I have more control than I think

be careful - SOMETIMES, as in not all the time, when we start thinking how great we are and how much control we have, BOOM! of course, as always, i speak only for myself.

As long as we don't start thinking that we have enough control to allow ourselves to slip a little.

Yup. We need to treat each and every day as if it is the first day of our journey. With a frishkite and a shtarkite.

MT

shlomoanonymous wrote on 13 Nov 2012 15:38:

Many said that and fell, even after many years. We MUST respect the Y"H. I don't mean to walk around afraid, that can also lead to falling. But, we must be on alert at ALL times. As the great one says balantz balantz . hatzlacha rabbah!