Just wanted to say hi.
Been following. Glad you were able to put on the brakes, learn and move on.
Memories fade. A slip doesn't necessitate a fall.
Glad to see you're still

on board!

Is ________ pancakes?

Machshovo wrote on 08 May 2012 14:36:

Wait a second, do you collect ______s or ........s?

Gevura,
Both, in fact, but only _____s have any monetary value beside their intrinsic value.

Now i have worked very hard getting rid of the collection of images that i amassed over 30+ years. Absolutely no value intrinsic or otherwise in any of them. Most are gone, but a few are still floating around. Surely they were filled away in multiple locations and i have yet to clear all those locations.
Progressive victories over lust for all. i'll even buy the first round.

Hatzlacha in all things GOOD!
chaimyakov

chaimyakov wrote on 11 Oct 2012 14:42:


Don't forget the brain - and the heart.

MT

Happy Belated Birthday to me!

i am amazed that it has been a year since i have acted out. Time flies when you are working a program of recovery. i never would have believed it was possible for me to do so, but that was because the 'I' was in my way. Now i have learned that i am truly incapable of not acting out if it is only up to me. i can only be clean today if i turn to HASHEM Yisborach. As soon as i turn to me i am in trouble.

Thank you HASHEM, Guard, and all of you here for teaching/helping/guiding/supporting me and for your patience and understanding.

i am off to another sober day, Bezras HASHEM.

Hatzlacha in all things GOOD!
chaimyakov

ps If anyone who reads this says "chaimyakov was easy, there is no way i can do this too"
just slap yourself and get to work. It works if you work it, but you gotta work it every day and every night. Because you are worth it!

Congratulations, CY!

You're an inspiration to all of us. Keep it up, and keep sharing the good news.

Gut Shabbos,

MT

A whole year!! WOW! Mazel Tov and KUTGW!!!

Gevura!

MAZAL TOV chaimyakov! May this be the first year of many until 120!

Mabrouk! and Masal Tov!

Nu. Happy belated birthday! ;D

So good to hear of your continued recovery.

So sweet, CY!! It's really just another good, sober day today...and that's the beauty of it. No real birthdays - but just a great present from Hashem.

8)

B'chasdei HASEM it is a cloudy day for me, so...

G-D - It is all YOU and YOU only and from YOU and YOU alone

Grant me the serenity to accept the things i can not change - such as the past, including my poor/bad choices and especially the poor/bad actions that followed and whatever punishment awaits me as a result, words spoken or not, opportunities missed or blown.

the courage to change the things i can - right now, do i look away or do i gaze, do i try to bypass my filter or not, do i go off into fantasy land or do i live life, do i fight or do i give up the fight, do i rejoice in my relationship with HASHEM or do i languish in desires unfulfilled, do i go into rage at "that" person and whatever "wrong" they did me or smile and move on, do i give or do i take, do i count my blessings or the blessings of my neighbor, do i focus on me or on the other, do i say why me or do i say Thanks, do i crawl into my cave or do i go out into the world, do i ask "what does HASHEM want of me right now?" or do i pretend that it doesn't matter, do i make that call or not, do i focus on the clouds or the "silver lining"

and the wisdom to know the difference - after 120 what really matters, i only have so much koach- i can try with all my might to push the boulder out of my path and it will still be there so do i push? go around? go over? go under? find another path? turn back?, do i have someone wiser to guide and direct me.

THY will, not mine, be done!



Thanks and as always,
Hatzlacha in all things GOOD!
chaimyakov

chaimyakov wrote on 06 Dec 2012 16:02:


Reminds me of the Gemara Yoma 28b
יומא דעיבא כוליה שימשא
"A cloudy day is entirely sunny"

Rashi explains that on a sunny day, it is warm in the sun and cool in the shade. But on a cloudy day it is warm all over, because the sun pushes through every little hole that it could find.

So enjoy the warmth of your special sunshine, and keep up your good stretch.

Hatzlacha

MT

Thanks MT, you gave me a smile on this cloudy/sunny day.
;D
Hatzlacha in all things GOOD!
chaimyakov