obormottel wrote:
Brother,
I remember thinking "I've tired everything and nothing works" when in reality I haven't even begun trying. It seems that you finally realized what we all here realize: we can't just close our eyes to the problem and decide very strongly in our heart to not act out when the next nisoyon comes.
We have to go through the steps, and take it one day at a time - that's what everyone here tells you. You didn't catch this desease overnight (nor did I), so it will take at least as long to get it under full control. Just be consistent, follow the advice of good people on this board, and if you fall (C"V) get up immediately ready to move forward. Staying in mud won't make you clean. Shake it off, give this one to the Evil one, and start the next round.
My heart goes out to you.
Good luck.
Ouch!
If this is factual, it is extremely depressin'.
I will be 83 before I recover!
OMG!
Truth be told, it doesn't scare me....for two reasons.
1. It's not true.
2. It's not true.
Reason 1. It's not true, for we can become clean and sober much faster than that. Requires a commitment, a plan, implementin' and support.
Reason 2. It's not true, for there's a good chance we will never fully recover, for the sickness will always be with us (perhaps), but that doesn't stop me from doin' what needs to be done right now - the moment before me.