wanted to read an excerpt just now but the site did not load. A neis? Yes, of course.
I am just going to write to keep myself busy.... How is everyone doing.... i like ti surf the web. it is much easier than sitting down to a blatt gemara- esp. a challenging one. i liketo listen to shiurim, etc. on the web but maybe that is not always the best. i dont have as muchb amelus from listening to a shiur online....i am just rambling u realize....

reminds me of the rav who was upset because ppl in his shul didn't listen to his speech.  He was reminded that at least they are not speaking lashon hora etc. during that time.  Go read some old posts here.  There are plenty of goodies!

saw a woman walking in YU and might have triggered but i think i will concentrate on the three tests i have coming up instead of wasting my time

watched p for abt 20 mins...

.....and??

Does the story end there?


What boundaries were crossed?

What steps were taken for the future

so im trying to get my friend to put k9 on my wife's comp but he wasnt able to do it yet

i think il be better off obv. with the filter

also wife was nidda so that makes it hard

  i come home from school and want to relax- watch videos, a little tv, chill out time. most of the time it's fine. dont always want ot do work...

Hard it may be.

keep doing what is working for you.

havea great shabbos!

and KOT.

StrugglingGuy wrote on 18 Nov 2011 15:05:


Please don't take this wrong, chaver, I am seriously just asking: Are you really absolutely sure that you consistently have a harder time staying clean when your wife is a niddah?

I do not know, so I am asking - but I believe that you may not really know - so I am asking you to think it over.

It may be that you have a harder time staying clean the more sex you have with your wife. It may not be so.

It may be that you have an easier time for only one or two days while your wife is mutar...but over the long run, it may be harder than while she is a niddah.

Just think it over, ok?

ya, im newly married so there's no long term evidence either way as of yet...
il keep u apprised

thx

just got a filter on wife's comp bh

Let's keep rocking  we will prevale.

fell today - prob is sometimes i like to hang arnd in bed, skip morning seder, etc. one thing leads to anthr

im comfortable at home- reading books and wearing pajamas- i have to work on consistency

Sound like you are pretty consistently inconsistent .  What do you mean by "work on consistency"?  What kind of work are you going to do?

like getting up at 8 for shachris which assures me that a) il be at minyan, b) il be at seder, and c) i prob wont mstrbt that morning.

u ask how i will work on it? well today i did it, so just encouraging myself to do it everyday. my wife leaves before me so she cant be there to do it.

also i am in the middle of a good book so that is also one of the reasons why i stayed in bed yestrdy. hopefully if i finish that, i wont have as much a yen to hang arnd in the morning.

One of the main reasons I need to go to Shacharis on time is so that I remain sober.

Not for the davening, but so that I do not feel like a jerk.

Gotta live my conscience...otherwise the meat-grinder in me starts going, "why'd you do it why'd you do it...." and I am damned to misery.

So I need to do a decent lunch every day, daven like a mentch, and other things...so that I stay sober.

It's kedai and I believe it is an excellent way to live.