I had a wet dream motzey Rosh Hashana. I know that they are of the subconscious but it bothered me a bit that there was one right afterward

Normal and expected buddy. You are BH doing great.

Sitting on the subway and having a day that's not hard but it's less than proficient and had to bend down and cover my eyes as if there was sun (there was no sun) bc someone decided to step in front of me.

Keep on Trucking, One Day At A Time!!

The yh tried to get me in a new way today. I was not gonna look but then a thought popped into my head "if I don't look then she'll notice that I didn't look at her, so then she will feel hurt that she's not attractive even though she is and it will lower her self-esteem, so I should look so she feels better about herself"
Lol typing this out makes it sound even more ridiculous but this was my thought process.
   Luckily I could analyze my thoughts to know that this is backward logic.

Keep on Trucking, One Day At A Time!!