Ah Gitten Erev Shabbos Koidesh!!!!! 
B”H today has so far been ok.
Friday is always a little tough because if you are in Israel you know that everyone is on malachei yisrael and that includes all the pretty bas yisroels dressed up lkavod erev shabbos shopping (which is not their issue so much) 
but B”H it was cold and rainy today 

I love seeing people just stam I love being in a public area (as long as it’s not an event I usually hate events probably because I am connected to the wrong crap and I can’t connect great to people) 

ok whatever have an amazing Shabbos brothers 

tzadikim!!!!!

joetyh wrote on 21 Feb 2022 10:57:

Wow! it's cool that you can do a week at a time.
For me personally one day at a time is a little too long.
I commit in the morning, then set a recommitting reminder on my phone for 12:00 and 4:00. (I should probably  do another one for 7:00 too).

sg

Shavua Tov!!!!! How was Shabbos? Shabbos was nice here B”H 
we are 2 days clean going on Day 3 Bez”H 
mtzsh can be hard sometimes but that just means I will have to deal with whatever it is. It does not mean I will fall.

I literally just fell on my face 

I thought I would be good tonight but I proved myself wrong 

I was first just trying to find pics of girls but that didn’t work really and I ended up going on YouTube and finding some nude video and masturbated 

I must get a grip on myself.

I know I can do it

I don’t know why I just gave in that easy 

please give me chizzuk I am a little down 

but im gonna keep my head up and move on 

I decided I will spend more time to flight to freedom (I did a lot of it than took a little break….) try to get my brain on track

i will also like to try learning mussar everyday Bez”H 

Have tmyou been Reading any of the books available on this site? Traditional mussar seforim may not target the specific area that is causing you to struggle. The books here such as the battle of the generation are specifically geared for this issue and written in a very supportive tone.

Dear Joey, 
I feel for you and understand your struggle very well. One second you feel like the king of the castle and no challenge is tough enough for you. The next second an urge will hit, and you think, "no big deal, I've beaten this before, I can do it again," but because you were able to fight it a day ago, or even a minute ago, it gives you a reason "to test yourself just a little more". So you look up a picture, then a video, then disable the blocker and so on til you say, "What have I just done..." and you feel this anguish and anger at yourself. This final feeling is painful but it is a good one to reflect upon. This feeling doesn't always come so when it does it's a good sign, because it means that even though you've fallen, you haven't totally desensitized yourself to this challenge that you've made it "okay" in your mind. It's important to focus on this feeling when making the next step. Don't test yourself with searching for pictures. It is never worth it. It's important to feel regret, but not guilt. Don't feel like a loser for falling. Take this opportunity to say sorry to yourself and to Hashem, and try again. Even Rabbi Nachman, when he was struggling with his own challenges found that he had dozens of ups and downs, even in a single day. Even when at the lowest point, he never gave up and that's what made him so great. Don't feel like you have to reach a week, a month, a year. Just today. If you can last one day, you can last another and another. Never feed the urge by thinking about it, never feed the urge by looking at things. I once had an urge that last for 4 hours. It was probably one of the most agonizing 4 hours of my life. I listened to music, prayed, learned torah, went for a walk, stretched, exercised, and it seemed like it would never go away. I beseeched one final time to Hashem to save me from the urge, and still felt it inside me. Then I decided I would 100% not allow the urge to consume me. I went to eat some food, made a blessing, and like a natural reaction after chewing one bite of my sandwich, the urge just up and went away. It was absolutely crazy, but I saw how Hashem made a miracle look natural. If I can fight such a long and difficult urge, than anybody can. It is never easy, but we get the biggest reward for the hardest challenge. I wish you all the best on your journey. May you never give up in this fight, and be successful for the rest of your days. Remember: You have a God given neshama, and the ability to overcome every challenge thrown at you. The greatest olam hazeh and olam haba is in your hands. All you need to say is, "I want it".

Good morning!! Yesterday was painful… I ended up falling again based on the first fall (I had messaged these sad people on WhatsApp and wasn’t strong enough when they responded yes I wasn’t expecting to be and it’s my fault) 

But I am now committing to be clean just today.

Today I will live my life like I want to

1 Day clean behind me. 
I Thank Hashem for that.
I am asking Hashem to help me out today because I cannot do it on my own.
I commit to be clean just for today.

Have a great day chevra!!!!

Good morning!!!!! 
Thank you Hashem for another clean day!!!
2 days clean behind me.
I am begging you Hashem I want to be clean today but I cannot do it alone like I’ve proven too many times.
Please give me another day clean.
A day that I am closer to having a clean mindset 

Good afternoon!!!! 
3 days clean behind me….
onto day 4!!!
I gotta focus on my learning more. I weirdly have this clarity in my mind that being involved in the learning is a certain level of inner peace… now I just gotta apply it to my life…. 
Bez”H we going to have another great day and another clean day!!!!

What a great feeling. Keep it up.

Hey y’all we got 4 days behind me….
we onto day 5!!!!!
 Oh and it’s Adar !!!!!!!!! 
I ask Hashem for just one more day clean I cannot do it on my own!!!!!
not much more  to say today so I’ll just say nothing…..

Ah gitten erev shabbos koidesh!!!! Ah gitten Rosh choidesh Adar!!!!!
5 days clean behind me!!!!!
I beg you Hashem for One more day clean!!!!!! 

Have an amazing shabbos guys!!!!!!

y’all are amazing!!!!

Such great news. Keep building. Have a wonderful Shabbos