Trouble wrote on 16 Feb 2021 19:27:

Hey Trouble, 

T'was a pleasure chatting, you seem to be like someone who really wants to be good and to stay away from TROUBLE not sure why you named yourself as such.

Thanks for your question, will try to respond soon Iy"h.

Best of luck,
Willdoit,

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So obviously these interactions were at least 186 days ago or more (you wrote "years ago").  Being that we have not noticed any sheriff warrants publicizing your picture as "WANTED - Mr Willdoit from Yehupitz", i think you are safe buddy.  

Is there any way for anyone to prove it was you behind the screen?

willdoit wrote on 12 May 2021 21:04:

So is there anyway to prove you were the one? I could've used your account...I doubt that would be considered "evidence". Besides it's just anxiety, I highly doubt there is area for concern. 

willdoit wrote on 12 May 2021 21:51:

It's usually when they compound the mistake by running for public office...

Hello,

I fell last night with mb after being clean for 200 days. Have nothing to add, its all my fault...

These 200 days are stored in Shomoyim and are your eydim of your hard work. Don't let yourself get demotivated. Shake off the dust, and pick yourself up. No point (at all) in beating yourself up! Perhaps find out what led you to your fall and try to up your shmira in that point, but that's it! Keep inspiring everyone!!

Falling at this point is painful, but you've got a lot of things going for you: You now know you can go a really long time without falling, you can still use the momentum from your streak to make an even longer streak, and now you know one more way that you can fall that you'll be much more careful with the next time around

Oy! It hurts! I just had the same after over a year. I spoke to HHM and he told me something which picked me up a bit. You are still the same person. You are still a guy who doesn't masturbate. You may have given in, but that doesn't change who you are. Just as a guy who comes on time to davening for 200 days, then oversleeps on day 201, doesn't immediately change to being a tardy fellow who doesn't value davening. He is the same on time guy, who came late once.

Come on time tomorrow my friend. 

It is misguided to think that the entire goal of life is to not mess up. Had that been the case, Hashem would not have bothered to create us, and He definitely wouldn’t have created challenges. Rather, the proper perspective is the positive: that our goal in life is to accomplish, and that self-control is one of the greatest acts we can do. By cashing in on this opportunity, you can become a great person, and having sinned doesn’t take that away. Greatness is in your hands! Remember that not too many people actually resist strong urges just because they know they should. Most people who appear unaffected by desire either don’t face it to a strong extent or actually give in to their desires in private. 

If past sins that we no longer commit still gnaw at our conscience and make us feel down about ourselves, we must do a proper teshuva and move on. We must stop beating ourselves up, even if “that horrific sin” was our fault. Hashem created us knowing that we might make many bad mistakes. That is why He created teshuva. When you do teshuva, He forgives you and no longer holds your sin against you.

After repenting, we must no longer feel inferior for our wrongdoings. Instead, we should be proud that we admitted our mistakes and resolved not to repeat them. We should also take pride in the effort we invested to change despite the difficulty of kicking old habits. Past sins leave over powerful desires, and it takes constant vigilance to control them. This makes the accomplishment even greater.

You have to ask yourself whether you should be defined as the person from 200 days or the person from 1 day. Shake it off buddy! You're doing great. This was a mistake but it doesn't define you.

Make sure to be ready for some stupidity from the yetzer hora, "oh my count will not change anyway so why not do it once more." Don't forget that counting days is just a gimmick but your real goal that's within you is each minute of success!

​Please be mechazek yourself at this vulnerable time and Hashem will surely help. (Please see my signature below for some things that can strengthen you and give you chizuk during this time.)

Hello,

I fell after being being clean for 271 days... Its all my fault, I know exactly what caused this and was able to prevent it from happening, and yet just went right ahead. I could have, should of done better...
I feel angry with myself...