Another super busy day in the zone! Thank you Hashem!!

B"H still doing well and staying in the zone.

Been dealing with HALT (hungry, tired, overwhelmed, etc.) lately between crazy busy at work (b"H!) and preparing for Pesach, and I've been feeling pretty stretched. I had some moments today where I had the urge to escape in the "comfy" world of taiva and did peek at a couple of very benign things. Nothing close to a slip or fall, but it's what starts the ball rolling in that direction and it's a breach of my commitment to not go anywhere on my computer that I wouldn't want my wife to see. (It doesn't have to be anything that intense to fall in that category).

So, I am strengthening my commitment to bl"n not go anywhere on my computer that I wouldn't want my wife to see and will check in on my thread here tomorrow regarding this commitment specifically. 

B”H had a great day today and was able to stick to my commitment.

I just want to leave off that I feel ready to go into Pesach in the right frame of mind and way of living. Regardless of my exact current streak, I truly feel that I have become a different person since joining GYE a few years ago and have developed a healthier relationship with these taivos and a belief in myself that I can live the life I want to live. (I used to feel that I would never be able to break free.) Yes, this is a lifelong battle, but b”H I feel that I now have the resources, tools, and confidence to continue fighting.

Thank you Hashem and GYE for my own personal yetzias mitzrayim, and may we all be zoiche to the ultimate geula when all these struggles become a thing of the past!

Chag Kosher Vsameach,

Determinedtowin

Gut Moed!

Working today and tomorrow. B"H I had a beautiful and uplifting first days and am feeling quite "kosher l'Pesach". Looking forward to a beautiful rest of yom tov.

See ya back here tomorrow be"H!

Hey!

How is it going? Would love to hear an update.

Thanks for checking in. I'm still alive b"H

It's been busy and up and down since Pesach.
I realized that I could block google completely which leaves me with a true whitelist now b"H. I'm hoping that, now that I'm no longer sitting in a matzav of yichud all the time, I will have an easier time against the y"h.

I did the same thing and worked wonders for me saved me from falling so many times

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22 b"H!

B"H doing good and in good zone these days. Be"H it should just continue!

I just wanted to check in since I got a new computer that needs to be set up. It may be a day or two until the filter is up and running. I'm feeling okay right now, but wanted another level of shemira by letting you guys know. I will bl"n check back in once the filter is properly set up up.

Thanks!

B"H all set!! No issues!!

Its been a while again...

I think I have a hard time with the all or nothing feeling that the constant tracking and checking in can cause. I think many of us see so much growth and then get discouraged by the falls that make it feel like we failed and blew it all. I think that's why I have been trucking on my own lately. 

Still growing, still fighting, still wining battles... but also still falling too often (giving in?).

Ellul is here and I must do something more. This is not how I want to be spending my days while I am trying to prepare for the Yom Hadin. I can give myself room to be a growing person and not having to be perfect as long as I feel that I am actually trying my best and indeed working hard to fight using the tools Hashem has given me to fight with. 

Hence, I am back once again! I plan on posting daily updates again on this thread at least throughout the Yomim Norayim. It's good to back  

Please hold me to it! Thank you all!

B"H going strong!

Keep trucking, brother!

B"H still solidly on track!

(I wasn't able to post the last few days since I was out of town.)