I dont know why, but reading the posts today (by  battleworn, niceguy, jack, Chasdei avos and the rest of you holy Tzadikim on this forum)  have made me cry.

literally.

I am sitting here all alone in my office and have tears of emotion running down my cheeks as I write these words.

A year ago, a week before Rosh hashana 5768,I was  sitting here all alone in my office and be doing everything that Hashem didn't want me to do. I would be sitting here thinking harmful thoughts with my mind, seeing terrible sights with my eyes, uttering despicable words in my mouth, doing horrible actions with my hands, and perhaps worst of all,I would be sharing it all with others and cause them to sin as well. I was a Jew by birth, but not acting or living as one.

Fast forward one year, to one week before Rosh Hashana 5769,and I am sitting here as a Beryah Chadash (a new person), with Hashem's help, trying to control my mind from thinking anything bad, being extremely cautious with my eyes to not allow them Chas V'Shalom to see any To'eva or Devarim Asurim, controlling my mouth from speaking any foul language and trying so hard to not speak lashon Hara etc, Baruch Hashem I am in control of my hands and havent violated my Bris Kodesh in almost 7 months. And best of all, B'Chasdei Hashem, I am doing what I can to spread the word of Hashem and help others overcome their own personal battles against their Yetzer Hara.

Thank you Hashem! I love you Hashem!

Last Rosh Hashana wheh Hashem in his infinite kindness and compassion granted me another year of life, I didnt really deserve it. I wasn't doing anything right. I wasn't davening. I wasn't learning as I should. I wasn't living my life according tothe Torah. I was only seeking to give myself physical pleasure and material satisfaction. I wasn't living the life of an Ehrlich Jew, as I knew how. It was nobody's fault but my own. I knew better, but my yetzer Hara wrongly convinced me that it wasn't in my hands. How stupid I was to fall for his foolishness.

But Hashem, who knows the deepest thoughts of every human being, knew that I had some sort of merit to keep me alive, and afford me a second chance.

I thank Hashem every day for bringing me to that crossroads in my life during the past year, and giving me a second chance. I thank Hashem publicly for giving me the strength and the foresight to  grab the bull by the horns and start the process of Teshuva Shelaima. I thank Hashem for giving me the little opening, and for guiding me every step of the way and for letting me begin living my life again as a Yid.

Hashem gives many people second (and third, and fourth etc) chances. But unfortunately many people don't take advantage of those new opportunities. I thank Hashem for helping me choose to grab that chance and utilize it!

My dear brothers and sisters who are reading these words,

Each and every one of you is here on this forum because you were deemed worthy by Hashem to get another chance!

Each and every one of you has the tools necessary and the strength needed to win your personal battles!

Each and every one of you have the Zechusim (merits) to transform yourselves from formerly stained Neshomos to sterling, pure and holy Neshoms that are worthy of the title "child of Hashem"!

Each and every one of you that is here (regardless of what stage in the personal battle you are holding) is looked upon by the Yetzer Hara as his #1 enemy.  It is people like you who have shown the resolve and the comitment to eradicate him from your lives, that scare him the most!

Each and every one of you will be amongst the elite few who will be chosen to greet Mashiach tzidkeinu very soon!

Each and every one of you will be in the front row to watch as the Yetzer Hara is slaughtered by Hashem once and for all!

Nobody (especially me) is perfect. In fact, the only "perfect" entity that exists is Hashem. Hashem has commanded us to emulate Him, not to become Him (because that is impossible). Hashem expects us simply to srtive for and work towards perfection, not necessarily to attain it.


Let's utilize the next week before Rosh Hashana and change ourselves, and more importantly, change the world!

You, me, and everyone on this forum can, and will B'Ezras Hashem, bring Moshiach THIS YEAR!!!!

Thank Hashem each and every day and utilize every opportunity that is given to you!

Kesiva V'Chasima Tova to all!!!

p.s. The tears are still welling up inside my eyes.

I dont know why, but reading the posts today (by  battleworn, niceguy, jack, Chasdei avos and the rest of you holy Tzadikim on this forum)  have made me cry.

literally.

I am sitting here all alone in my office and have tears of emotion running down my cheeks as I write these words.

A year ago, a week before Rosh hashana 5768,I was  sitting here all alone in my office and be doing everything that Hashem didn't want me to do. I would be sitting here thinking harmful thoughts with my mind, seeing terrible sights with my eyes, uttering despicable words in my mouth, doing horrible actions with my hands, and perhaps worst of all,I would be sharing it all with others and cause them to sin as well. I was a Jew by birth, but not acting or living as one.

Fast forward one year, to one week before Rosh Hashana 5769,and I am sitting here as a Beryah Chadash (a new person), with Hashem's help, trying to control my mind from thinking anything bad, being extremely cautious with my eyes to not allow them Chas V'Shalom to see any To'eva or Devarim Asurim, controlling my mouth from speaking any foul language and trying so hard to not speak lashon Hara etc, Baruch Hashem I am in control of my hands and havent violated my Bris Kodesh in almost 7 months. And best of all, B'Chasdei Hashem, I am doing what I can to spread the word of Hashem and help others overcome their own personal battles against their Yetzer Hara.

Thank you Hashem! I love you Hashem!

Last Rosh Hashana wheh Hashem in his infinite kindness and compassion granted me another year of life, I didnt really deserve it. I wasn't doing anything right. I wasn't davening. I wasn't learning as I should. I wasn't living my life according tothe Torah. I was only seeking to give myself physical pleasure and material satisfaction. I wasn't living the life of an Ehrlich Jew, as I knew how. It was nobody's fault but my own. I knew better, but my yetzer Hara wrongly convinced me that it wasn't in my hands. How stupid I was to fall for his foolishness.

But Hashem, who knows the deepest thoughts of every human being, knew that I had some sort of merit to keep me alive, and afford me a second chance.

I thank Hashem every day for bringing me to that crossroads in my life during the past year, and giving me a second chance. I thank Hashem publicly for giving me the strength and the foresight to  grab the bull by the horns and start the process of Teshuva Shelaima. I thank Hashem for giving me the little opening, and for guiding me every step of the way and for letting me begin living my life again as a Yid.

Hashem gives many people second (and third, and fourth etc) chances. But unfortunately many people don't take advantage of those new opportunities. I thank Hashem for helping me choose to grab that chance and utilize it!

My dear brothers and sisters who are reading these words,

Each and every one of you is here on this forum because you were deemed worthy by Hashem to get another chance!

Each and every one of you has the tools necessary and the strength needed to win your personal battles!

Each and every one of you have the Zechusim (merits) to transform yourselves from formerly stained Neshomos to sterling, pure and holy Neshoms that are worthy of the title "child of Hashem"!

Each and every one of you that is here (regardless of what stage in the personal battle you are holding) is looked upon by the Yetzer Hara as his #1 enemy.  It is people like you who have shown the resolve and the comitment to eradicate him from your lives, that scare him the most!

Each and every one of you will be amongst the elite few who will be chosen to greet Mashiach tzidkeinu very soon!

Each and every one of you will be in the front row to watch as the Yetzer Hara is slaughtered by Hashem once and for all!

Nobody (especially me) is perfect. In fact, the only "perfect" entity that exists is Hashem. Hashem has commanded us to emulate Him, not to become Him (because that is impossible). Hashem expects us simply to srtive for and work towards perfection, not necessarily to attain it.


Let's utilize the next week before Rosh Hashana and change ourselves, and more importantly, change the world!

You, me, and everyone on this forum can, and will B'Ezras Hashem, bring Moshiach THIS YEAR!!!!

Thank Hashem each and every day and utilize every opportunity that is given to you!

Kesiva V'Chasima Tova to all!!!

p.s. The tears are still welling up inside my eyes.