shua73 wrote on 14 Dec 2016 16:50:

Yes but by me he was a hero (didnt see this one, but i recognised his face right away) , i got hooked up on the expandables and thats when i started of with movies, so im working hard not to fall in to that again, and to stop seeing him as a hero!

Thats from my thread

WS it's great that you have a live person to talk to. I have not taken this step but many people on GYE say it's very important. Do you find it has changed things for you?

will Succeed Beh wrote on 14 Dec 2016 19:03:

Sorry should I change the picture?

Hey people i feel like slipping so instead I'll just post that I'm feeling this way.

LifneiHashem wrote on 14 Dec 2016 22:22:

Live as in in person or as in not through chatting / posting

LifneiHashem wrote on 14 Dec 2016 22:22:

Night and day.

shua73 wrote on 14 Dec 2016 22:38:

Good move.
 keepI us posted please.

shua73 wrote:

Shua I don't have any sage advice, but thank you for posting and I am davening for you now. 

shua73 wrote:

Live in person 

LifneiHashem wrote on 14 Dec 2016 23:22:

It doesn't go away just because I posted but it sure makes it much easier. And thanks I appreciate it

Shua, man. Don't do it!
I have felt the same way recently. Here is what I wrote about this just today:
Another clean day.
Not a lot to say right now. 
Can't say everything's good. 
Lots of frustration.
But this area of tyvah has been good.
Similar to eating healthy (and losing weight).
These are 2 areas that I am taking control,
and have been successful today.
(and for the last little while now).
It actually makes me feel a little better, since other things
outside of my control or at least partially outside of my control
are largely frustrating me recently. 
----------------------------------------------
I can't let this area slip and eat junk food, or I'll really feel like crap afterward!
Hope this perspective helps.

We can all get to 90-days clean. This is an accomplishment that you can do, but it isn't going to be easy.
Because it takes real effort and struggle, is exactly why you'll get a sense of accomplishment and feeling of positivity about yourself when you get there. This feeling is/will be WAY more long-lasting than the immediate, fleeting pleasure from giving into our tyvahs. Saying that to myself, reminding myself, has helped me and may help you too. Also, get out of the room you are having the test in. Remove yourself, get some fresh air, something. Just move out of there. A lot of times, once you change the setting, and don't immediately give in, the "spell is broken" and you get out of the danger zone.
Let me know if any of this helps you. It has helped me. Yesterday, big time! And even today, when the desire pops in my head. You can win and not give in. You are in control. It isn't in control of you.
Obviously, this is only my own perspective and will not be the right approach for everyone. Why I even feel the need to write this disclaimer is crazy, but necessary...based on prior posts on my 90-day thread.

shua73 wrote on 14 Dec 2016 23:29:

Perhaps read two pages from the white book.

To all you guys who answered thanks for being there. It felt so much easier to just tell everyone that I'm feeling like slipping instead of actually slipping bc when I slip I feel like I slip for a long time. First I slip a little and it's like two or three days and then after slipping little by little I finally fall. This is much quicker. After posting I had a desire but it was much smaller. Once I get up and say I feel like slipping I feel stupid saying thanks for the support but you can all go jump in a lake cuz I fell either way. If I'm just gonna fall either way then why get everybody's hopes up. So here i am finding this situation quite humorous bc I've never tried this and its not that difficult bh. I mean I've mentioned when I feel like falling but I don't recall mentioning when I feel like slipping.