Sorry to hear about your fall......
But it's as the others wrote FELL SHMELL!!! The only thing we can do with a fall is learn from it, and learn from it you did!!!
I found two points in what you wrote 1) Opportunity. But more importantly 2)
plonialmoni11 wrote:
Other then that I can't really tell what my trigger was. I feel like i'm always triggered
That really hit home for me, because when I hit that realization it was simple that I needed to put most of my focus on that!! The unfiltered computer, home alone, on the plane, etc. were all just the places where all the built up triggers could shoot. But if I could learn to stop the triggers, then they wouldn't need to shoot!! So I started working on shemiras einayim, and lusting after my wife which I found were two of my main lusting points.
A little bit after that after falling after 152 days I learned that there is another "trigger" and that is my
attitude towards life, and if my attitude was negative then I would look for lsut and eventually slip and fall. So I started working on that.
Get up!! JUST KEEP ON TRUCKING!!!! It's one day at a time here, and today we can be clean, all of us the same, just for today!!
A negative attitude towards life is a trigger to lust.