I agree. Don't divulge anything identifying about yourself here on the open forum.
And if you feel like you can't stay clean and must act your lust out, u can always just call me or other guys here and talk it over. Not to 'convince you to stop', of course, for that's your business....but rather, just to open up, face the truth, and simply let go of the goofy lust for just this one moment with Hashem's help, if you really want to let it go. Nobody can 'want to' for you.
It's worth it.
It's free.
It's safe.
And it would do you just as much good to call and open up to anyone else here. No difference.
I would assume you have been hiding this problem of yours for some years, now. You would be surprised at how much of your difficulty is simply because no real live person knows the real truth about you.
If you feel that you can't get that perspective by just posting here behind a fake name, then call!
You will stay clean today, anyhow, be"H.