if you r a sexaholic in morristown new jersey please PM(private message)me!i need some advice and help regarding meetings and stuff!!
Thanks and have a great lust free, Hashem'ly full week!!!

In the meanwhile ill transcribe some of my thoughts over the past while.

"im a sexaholic."
"Nah thats a bit tough on yourself,you've just got,u know,regular taavos every regular guy has...."
2 weeks pass, im falling all the time inexplicably all resolve dissipates,dust in wind,like never happened.
Confident,principled good thoughts in my head 'bout Yiras Shomayim id walk home. Now surely i wont fall.Starving hungry, mind on eating. Noone home."Oh theres internet upstairs ill just check my email."
"Oh ill JUST check the news."
BANG the rest is history.
I look down at my self.
"whatcha done?"
"Again?"
"Why?"
After time i go to 12 steps.
Powerlessness."Thats a bit to powerful for me.Im well basically powerless except when..."
But i fall again.
"Yes im powerless"id say it to myself.
Id even pray & talk to G-d.
Im walking home Friday night.Empty house.Home alone.Parents away.Had a good meal. Divrei Torah.Aibishter.Emuna.ETC.
Creepy suggestive thought tickles my brain and my body reacts allergically.Mind is flooded with dirty ideas.
"WHAT?"
Then it hits me.
POWERLESSNESS.Yes I(EMPHASIZED) cannot do anything about it. I WILL masturbate.I WILL act out tonight.I will.
I cant stop because I am a SEXAHOLIC.
Yes that big scary word.
"But im a good guy i Daven i learn and im serious.i work on myself and...."
"Yes but your a sexaholic"

ONLY HASHEM CAN HELP ME.I TURN THE KEY ENTER THE HOUSE AND HE DID.

3.00AM- My binges r lasting longer.
I FEll AGAIN.Im not being honest & im being lazy bout working the steps.
Anyway HASHEM help me.I HONESTLY want to do what you want but this insanity has me whipped.

sorry
not near there

is there any time between what you do after checkin the news and when you actually act out?
are you at all in proper frame of mind then that you can reach out to a partner, mentor or somebody that can help you through it?

bhatzlachah

still noone!?

Topeka?
Fargo?
Cheyenne?

Heeellllloooo......

Darn!

Nice thread to bump. I wonder what happened? There has to be meetings and people in the area. There is for sure people in the Teaneck area. That's not too far. I know people who drive that for work, surely one can drive it for recovery.

OMG!

i'll be squattin' all night!

LOL. I'm taking it down, don't worry

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