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I may not be about to fall, but I am about to give up... 30 Aug 2011 01:29 #116841

  • longbeach
Please daven for me.  Hashem will know who "longbeach" is.
I am so overwhelmed right  now, and have no one to turn to.  In the last few years my life has taken several "bad turns."  Is it any wonder I wanted to escape, and ended up in the internet dump?  (No, I am NOT headed there now, and I am NOT GOING THERE!). 

I have been through illness, pain, the loss of my closest friend, trouble at work, and financial problems that make me feel I am hemmoraging money.  Most days I can make it work, stay balanced, focussed and moving forward.  The last week (for most of us on the east coast) have been a roller coaster.  I am "here" for people who need refuge from the hurricane, space in my fridge, , Ice for those who need it for coolers, electrical outlets so everyone can charge their stuff, an open ear for those in pain...My house has been open to many people at all hours...

But I have no one, no support.  And right now  I could really use some.
Badly.
Just knowing someone out there is reading this and gives a hoot would really help right now.

So, please, include me in your prayers, and drop me a reply.

Thanks,

-longbeach
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Re: I may not be about to fall, but I am about to give up... 30 Aug 2011 01:32 #116842

  • bardichev
longbeach

i heard longbeach got hit hard

listen tzaddik

dont give up now

u have come to the right oplace

come along for the ride

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Re: I may not be about to fall, but I am about to give up... 30 Aug 2011 01:51 #116846

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I'm going out to Maariv right now, i'll try to have you in mind.

Hang in there.....

Gevura!
!אנא עבדא דקודשא בריך הוא

וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל


"If it would be so easy there wouldn't be a GYE, but if it would be impossible there also wouldn't be a GYE."
"Sometimes a hard decision leads to an easier outcome."
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Re: I may not be about to fall, but I am about to give up... 30 Aug 2011 01:57 #116847

  • longbeach
Thanks, to both of you.  It means a lot to me.
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Re: I may not be about to fall, but I am about to give up... 30 Aug 2011 16:26 #116897

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longbeach, i will include you in my davening as well
wishing you serenity calm and contentment
zs
Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise
~Inna beshem ZS

Give, Forgive
~Cordnoy

The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting.
~TZ
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Re: I may not be about to fall, but I am about to give up... 30 Aug 2011 16:30 #116899

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We're here for you my friend.
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Re: I may not be about to fall, but I am about to give up... 30 Aug 2011 16:38 #116905

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Dear friend,
hang  in there and our tfillois on your behalf will certainly bring you desired yeshuois. We stand to benefit, too: kol hamispalel b'ad chaveroi, ne'ane t'chilo. I can surely use that, so thanks for an opportunity to daven for you.
However, I noticed that I'm replying few hours after you posted. So do you have anyone to call or email directly for immediate response? My email is barmitzva@writeme.com, but I am not a skilled professional to even know how to handle a crisis. You can email me any time you want, but I think it'd be good to have someone a phonecall away to drag you out of a bad (mental) spot.
Baby steps.
If the road is pulling you down, it's a sign that you are going uphill, so just press harder on the gas!

Have a great day - unless, of course, you made other plans.
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Re: I may not be about to fall, but I am about to give up... 30 Aug 2011 16:49 #116911

  • Chasdei Avos
Long Beach: Wow I shed a tear in my heart for your turmoil.  Keep posting.  I just said a prayer in english to Hashem.
We are with you and hashem is always with you.
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Re: I may not be about to fall, but I am about to give up... 30 Aug 2011 23:42 #117044

  • longbeach
I got through it ...thanks for all of your tefillos and support...another good reason to be on GYE.

Good Chodesh, everyone...
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Re: I may not be about to fall, but I am about to give up... 31 Aug 2011 01:05 #117059

  • longbeach
and, by the way, I made it through day 10.  GYE really helps me with my lack of internet self control. I just go here first, read and share, and get a lot of chizuk.
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Re: I may not be about to fall, but I am about to give up... 31 Aug 2011 03:17 #117086

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dear longbeach - 10 days is an ETERNITY when you are in a bad place.  I do not know how you do it, I am in a very easy place compared to you, so please be aware that your strength is not lost or wasted.  You are in fact (although you dont realise) actually inspiring others (i.e. me), so thank you.
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