My Take on Elul
This is my take on this Elul / Yomim Noraim, and I think many of us here can relate:
For several years I've come before the Ribono Shel Olam before Rosh Hashana with one kabalah.
"Ribono Shel Olam, this year I plan on being better with my Shmiras Anayim.
Both in the street & on the computer.
No Internet surfing
No image searches
No blog searches
No inappropriate blog reading
And Ribono Shel Olam, although You and I know that I made this same kabalah last year and I have nothing to show for it; and I am not worthy of your mercy or of being kept alive this year; it was not because I wanted to go against Your will, it's because of this terrible addiction that plagues me. So, Ribono Shel Olam, please forgive me for my aveiros of last year, and grant me another year of life and give me the strength to do Your will this year."
This year I will be making almost the same kabalah and much of the same statements, with one important difference.
Ribono Shel Olam, during this past year, and especially recently...
I WAS BETTER!
I MADE IMPROVEMENTS!
I FOUND GYE!
I GUARDED MY EYES!
I INSTALLED AN INTERNET FILTER!
I GAVE AWAY THE PASSWORD!
I EVEN HELPED INSPIRE OTHERS!
Now You and I know that I was far, far, far from perfect, and I still have worlds to improve in this area, but please grant me a new year of life and allow me to continue to grow and improve.