From Guilt & Regret to Appreciation & Gratitude
As we prepare to exit the year 5770, it is a time to make a reckoning of how the year passed. How it started with guilt & regret for all the garbage I was living in, along hopes and prayers for Hashem to help me get out of it. The format was exactly the same as the year before, and the year before that, and the year before that.....
The year 5770 turned out differently though! The year 5770 was the year that Hashem showed me his mercy. It is the year that, on 20 Teves, Hashem led me to the great and holy Guard Your Eyes Kehilla!!! This is the year that the shackles binding me began to loosen! This is the year that I learned what it means to have Emunah in Hashem! (I am still very very far from it, but I am beginning to learn what it means. I see the light at the end of the tunnel. It is far away, but already in sight!)
Now, as the year draws to a close, it is an opportune time to express appreciation & gratitude to GYE, who acted as Hashem's shelichim in leading & prodding me along the proper path!