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Physical Pain

obormottel Tuesday, 24 May 2016

To all those that say there are no physical side effects/danger to p&m addiction (as opposed to hard drugs), here is my story.

I've been going through a hard time lately and acting out more frequently then in the past. After one such incident, I began to have physical discomfort. Within a few hours, I was in more pain then I could ever remember. I'm a pretty big guy, and I have a very high tolerance for pain, but this was unbearable. On a scale of 1-10, I would give it a 9 - 9.5. The Dr said it was probably caused by irritation and it should go away in a few days, but it's already a few days and it still hasn't. I am scared.

This didn't happen because of any natural causes. It happened because I cannot control myself when it comes to lust. I hope that in the end things will get better but my point is that this disease/addiction/obsession/yetzer hora, whatever you want to call it, is deadly. Besides for destroying relationships and friendships and job opportunities, it has broken me physically. This drug is the real deal and if I (we) don't stop soon enough I literally may lose everything.