Miracles of recovery
I want to tell you guys that since I've been here last, in the past 3 months my life has been changed completely thanks to Gd, to this program of 12 steps of recovery and the Big Book. My relationship with my wife has changed, my relationship with my kids has changed, my relationship with other human beings has changed!
I've been in the program now for about two-and-a-half years, and I was acting as a dry drunk. I had sobriety but I had no recovery at all. Now, I have a Higher Power - God - Who loves me unconditionally, no matter what I do. Every morning, I ask God to know His Will and to do His Will, because whatever His Will is that's what's going to happen today. As the result of this daily surrender, my lust is much lower, rage is so much lower, life becomes much better. Not only that, I'm at peace with myself and I'm calm.
About two months ago, my wife looked at me and told me, "Niv, I want what you have, and I'm jealous of you." I never even dreamed I would ever hear these words! I feel completely changed. I feel like I'm a new person. I'm not perfect, but it's much better than before. I fired myself in step 3, I do not run the world anymore, I have a God Who runs the world, and I turned to Him. Even my business is doing a little better now, and even if a business is not doing better, I'm going to be OK because no matter what happens in my life, I have a God Who loves me unconditionally.
Someone recently left a note on my truck, saying that I'm a liar and I'm a thief, and I work the fourth step about it, and I asked God to remove my fear and resentment towards his person. If this was a year ago, I probably would have killed myself but, thanks to the program, I didn't.
So many miracles to be grateful for!