Wednesday, 29 March 2017

Self-sacrifice

by GYE Member (See all authors)

One of my favorite sayings is, "We have to realize and appreciate the s'char for being moser nefesh for the Ribono Shel Olam when dealing with this struggle: that Shomayim will, in turn, be moser nefesh for us."

Recently, I had three days in a row where the going was rough. I really had the urge to act out - and the urge was powerful. I didn't know where it was heading, and I found myself telling over this line about mesirus nefesh. And I realized it was time to practice what I preach. I turned to Hashem and said,"Hashem, you know what I am going through, and I am being moser nefesh for you. Please be "moser nefesh" for me! Please accept from me a korbon, that instead of thinking about d'vorim assurim, I will think of things to thank You for."

And with that train of thought, I continued with my day, with the lust cycle being broken. Shortly after this took place, my daughter was in a massive car accident. The car was completely totaled. She walked out without a scratch! We are not neviim, but it looks like this "coincidence" was really a "kah" (as in the letter yud followed by the letter hay) incidence. (In reality, every coincidence is really a kah incidence). Of course, there will be skeptics who "don't believe in such stories," but I think most will agree that I was zoche to see the Yad Hashem in an incredible way.