I Knew I Had to Change
I thank Hashem that I found this supportive and loving group of Neshamot! I am a 50-year-old Jewish man, who is learning to love Hakodesh Baruch Hu through Daily Prayer deepening Torah Study, and the performance of Mitzvot.
After watching a video lecture from a Rabbi about a Near Death Experience he had before he became religious, it opened my eyes to how my actions and immorality were blemishing my Neshama, not to mention my relationship with Hashem. I felt such shame for how I have been treating Hashem.
I thought to myself, how can I grow deeper in my relationship with Hashem while I am doing these immoral acts?
I knew right then and there that I had to change and offer Teshuvah for all these sins I have done. And by the grace of Hashem, I found this group! It literally just appeared on my Google Window while I was searching about the next Torah Parsha. It was truly a gift given to me from Hashem! Amazing!!
I have started my 90 days journey and with all of your help, will succeed and change this behavior from sin to Performing Mitzvot!