The pain of looking happy
What is happiness?
Is happiness smiling, telling jokes,
having a good time?
If so why does my soul feel so empty?
Like my very being is getting burned up alive
with no one to put out the fire!
Don't they see someone suffering?
Don't they see someone who's scared to face the cruel world
that she just saw right by her fingertips?
Or they just see that "smile"
that comforts them why bother she looks "happy"
ow, what they don't understand is the pain the shame and the guilt!
So I ask again what is happiness?
Happiness is when my soul feels the truth
happiness is when I am not lying to the world
happiness is when I could look in the mirror and say yes this is who I am
I struggle I fall I get up and struggle again
I fight I lose and fight again
never to give up
when I come to that realization
there is a real smile on my face
I can show the world
that yes I’m happy