Feeling Clean is an Afterthought
Bh I'm still clean, but I don't feel clean. I have practically not been nichshal in two weeks, even in shmiras haynayim. Of the hundreds of opportunities to look and see things in the street, I only sneaked a peak five times in two weeks. Amazing, but I still don't feel clean.
Two weeks? Take your time, chaver.
I heard an alkie say that his problem was never drinking - it was sobriety! Living without alcohol was unbearable.
Are you saying that living without using lust is uncomfortable? If so, don't worry: everyone I know who ever got sober felt that way at one time or another, and most acted out as a result. They got the sense knocked back into their heads after going through that cycle a few times. I never had to, b"H. I just watched them doing it for me!
There is more to do with you, and He's going to do it, don't worry - it will get interesting, I promise!
To me, the feeling of cleanliness is a fringe benefit. It was actually the last thing I ever expected when I came to recovery. What I was really after was just staying alive and keeping my G-d. Oh, and also "my" wife, children, parents, friends, job, and community.
Feeling clean was a (worthy) afterthought, at best.