Thursday, 20 July 2017

Try something new

By Exhilarated Daughter of Hashem

by GYE Member (See all authors)

So my struggle is all about masturbation in response to my very wild and dirty fantasies. Since I'm the type that lives in my own head, there's always lots of fun and noise in there (usually not bad, btw!) and there's almost always a song playing in the background, as well. So there I was, starting to drift into fantasy. I thought that maybe some internal music would help, and I 'turned on' a song. Unwittingly (I promise!) it was a song from Meshulam Greenberger's new album, to the words ...והחזרינו בתשובה שלימה באמת... Now, that didn't exactly jibe with my fantasies, and the song won!

P.S. I tried it the next time I had my nisayon and it didn't help. I fell. But, taking GYE's advice I learned from this fall that there's no cure-all. I need to stay on my toes and try different things all the time.