Made it back from work travel without Any issues, BH. Didn’t even turn on the TV once. Honestly, was pretty busy.

Also, turns out that I’d been wrong about my work phone the whole time. I didn’t need my phone for work travel after all. I’ve since canceled the service (told HR I don’t need the phone and want to save the company money)
plan on shipping out the phone to HQ so someone else can use it.

Had a three day losing streak last week on the stupid work phone, so glad to get it off my hands. 

Yes

eerie wrote on 01 Jul 2025 17:33:

Bmchilas Kvod my [once-upon-a-time?!] dear friend Reb Eerie
Even if 100% of people here 'blame' their issue on the freedom and the seminary girls when being away from home - it doesn't reflect the opinion of the thousands that aren't here.
I totally get your wanting a poll, but I don't think GYE is the right place.
I totally only acted out in person - bezchut SA, but at the same time i'm only sober [and possibly still married] bzchut SA.
It was a process and journey. I've grown incredibly the past 4 years in many areas, even as I was having unmentionable encounters at the same time.
I dare to do a poll - Did your problem get worse after the chassuna? - many [myself included] say yes - should we therefore discourage weddings?

it all depends on your relationship with them, obviously if its a good and healthy one then they would do all for their kids, but if not it might fireback the wrong way

I dont think anyone here knows your parents. Hard to answer...

What do you seek to gain if it goes well?

Yes / No
Pros & Cons

Hey yosef,

I can definitely relate to both your previous post and the post beforehand. I am sorry that I couldn't respond. Something that I had and still have a difficult time with is when people don't respond, but we have to realize that we may have time for GYE sometimes (I don't right now but I am procrastinating and feel that this is very important) but most of the other people, especially the ones that respond, have very busy and full lives. Juggling work, kids, a relationship, and our own daily nisyonos, which are very time consuming. 

Something that is very hard to realize in the moment is that when we are experiencing stress, depression, and anxiety if we run to porn and masturbation then we just end up adding more emotions like guilt and lack of self worth on top of all of those emotions. 
Once we get the instinct to use porn and masturbation to numb our emotions out of our system, aka rewire our brains, we start to gain the tools to deal with emotions. 
I can guarantee that life is way more enjoyable without porn and masturbation. Every day there is a calm sense of peace that and a higher sense of self worth that is irreplaceable.

With regards to connecting to Hashem, when we are in the clutches of Lust it is very difficult to connect to anyone. We tend to draw into ourselves and subconsciously we block out others out of fear that they would find out what we do or out of the feeling that we arent worthy to connect. Their is also a fear of loosing our companion that we thought was our friend. We learn to rely on lust and it appears as if it is always there for us. We need to change our perspective and acknowledge that this was never something that helped us but rather it drained us and left us out to dry. 
Here is a post (that nobody responded to ) :
guardyoureyes.com/forum/1-Break-Free/413816-A-Friend#413816

I hope that this helps and I would try type more but I have to get back to class to finish about 15 assignments and study for an exam  
 Again, without porn and masturbation numbing my emotions I am able to push through this stress and anxiety without a huge weight on my whole body that I use to feel. It ain't easy but its 1000% easier!!

Keep on Trucking, One Day At A Time!!

Day 0. Ughh. Starting something new. I can’t beat M right now. But I could beat P. I know I can. 90 days clean of P(and then forever) starts now. 
day 0 clean

maybe listen to this episode which mite give great chizuk if you understand Yiddish

Check out episode: הצלחת האדם בעלם הזה נמדד האם הוא מתמודד כראוי בכל המצבים @@Havineini‏
http://lomdotchasidut.libsyn.com/32pamu65956o

Sometimes we feel close to hashem sometimes we don't not neccesarally because of what we're doing whether good or bad will affect our feeling of shaich us to hashem , the seforim hakdoishim bring down the idea of yimay ahava and yimey sinah.
     Keep trucking my friend 

Hey Yosefthetzadik!

I hope you feel good some time soon . It's great you are on this platform. I can try and give you chizzuk. Words of chizuk: "I've got your back". I didn't read all your post. I've read your most recent one. The way I think, is that happiness is more valuable than always guarding your eyes. As a friend I try to make people happy. It's great to hear you.

Sincerely
Avi

See?
I wasn't wrong in assuming that the good people know who they are.

Thanks, each and every one of you, for your warm, fuzzy, mushy, sticky, sickly-sweet, hard-as-rocks, soft-as-warm-butter, tough-as-nails, ice-cold, parev-as-tofutti, kosher-as-gefilta, tall, and round welcomes.

Good people indeed.

Need some chizzuk today. Not about abstination, just in general. I had one of the most stressful, depressing, and anxious day of recent memory. 
While I'm here already, let me ask you guys, I know what I'm doing is right, and I'm sure that Hashem has immense nachas ruach, but for some reason I don't feel close to him at all! Can anyone relate?

(also, just wondering, how come Noone has responded to my previous post? I see quite a few thank you's)

chosemyshem wrote on 02 Jul 2025 15:49:

Why would you moderate this. I put it back to the way you had it uncensored
Unmoderated

chosemyshem wrote on 02 Jul 2025 15:49:

Hey, cool! I didn't even know that was possible. Added my own version but promptly self-censored it, written as moderator.