I've been masturbating and lusting for several years and things are getting worse and more intense, but I keep struggling with really being honest that this is getting worse etc. but I don't really want to continue either, any advise how to make the program work?

Work it step by step and don’t rush the process 

But don't you need it already by step 1?

As far as I can tell the process starts with step 1 

Maybe share some un-identifying history so the oilam can respond.

I'm holding now where I'm turning to porn more often and I feel myself losing interest in trying to fight it instead I'm more and more allowing porn to take my mind over

Did you do the "Your desire for change" section of the Flight to Freedom program?

I don't think so. But is the flight to freedom also for addicts or just for non addicts?

The F2F program rewires the brain for most people. Someone who is a real addict might sometimes need the 12 steps program but what makes you say that you are a real addict? I tried stopping for 3 decades without success before joining GYE and taking the F2F program. I had zero control over my desires and I was sure that it was an addiction but in the end I wasn't a real addict. I took the program and became a free man. For most people the F2F program, the book The Battle of the Generation, the forum and reaching out to friends is enough to break free. If you haven't tried all of these with determination for a longer period of time I don't know whether you should jump to the next level of the 12 steps program. Breaking free is a process and it takes time, but if you do everything I mentioned you will probably break free. Here is the link to the ebook: https://guardyoureyes.com/ebooks/item/the-battle-of-the-generation

I suggest that you reach out to the main mentor, Hashem Help Me, at michelgelner@gmail.com and discuss your plan with him. He has helped many people including myself and you won't regret it.

Keep us posted on how it goes. Keep on posting and sharing and make friends. Rooting for you.

I sent a message to the text guy, and he gave me a list of questions to determine if I'm a addict and I checked out with almost all of them, so he recommended looking into 12 step program, so that's why I'm wondering if also F2F will help me

Definitely not in place of the 12 steps program.

Even if you are going to do the 12 steps I think that you will still benefit a lot from The Battle of the Generation.

Ok, I'll check out. Thank you!

Does anyone have a copy of the white book in pdf form?

I do.
You can reach me at gyehelp2017@gmail.com


Just to mention, I've been in SA for close to 5 years now. And it has been a life saver for 'me'.