B"H another day under my belt. Again, I've just been very happy with how things are going in my life, so even when stress starts to get at me, Hashem gives me the strength to beat it by reminding me that things are so good now. How could I ruin it?! The next few days though may get a little more stressful. I have a lot of work coming up in the next few days, and that will probably stress me out. Hopefully, Hashem will continue to give me strength to beat the yetzer hara. May Hashem give strength to all of us to keep fighting this battle!

Friday and Shabbos were great B"H. I've really just been so happy that the yetzer hara hasn't been able to get a hold of me in this area. However, I do realize that when things are going so well and I'm so happy that I forget to focus on Hashem in other areas of my life. My davening hasn't been so well for the past week, which really is a shame. Looking back, the only reason why that would happen is because I've forgotten that He's been the one helping me get to this point. I can't allow that to happen. My davening has to be better, so I'm going to work on that. But B"H, I'm still clean. At the end of the day, I will be on Level 2 IY"H. I just need to start focusing on the quality of those clean days more than the quantity. Hopefully, Hashem will give me the strength to do that. May Hashem give strength to all of us to keep fighting this battle!

wow just keep on going, you are doing great
cantdoitmyself wrote on 06 Mar 2011 14:35:


its unbelievable how just working on this addiction drives us to be better in everything else,
this battle will be the road to your success in many different areas

im really happy for you
keep on trucking....full force

B"H another day gone without slipping or falling. Hashem took care of me again today. I seemingly tend to resort to inappropriate things when I get stressed. I thought that these few days would be difficult, because I have exams coming up, but so far so good. However, I can't let my guard down. I pray that Hashem gives me the strength to keep fighting.
In regards to my davening today, my shachris and mincha weren't so great. I was tired and not feeling well, but I told myself that maariv has to be better, so B"H maariv was great. I really got into the words I was saying, so thank you Hashem for allowing me to do that. May Hashem give strength to all of us to keep fighting this battle!

Well there goes the streak. I can't believe it. Things were going so well. I had a fall. Like I said, my triggers are TV, not the computer usually. That's what always seems to break my streaks. I stayed up watching a basketball game because I thought it was no big deal. I just figured that I'd watch it and go to bed. Yet here I am typing this like two hours after the game. I watched inappropriate things on the TV. When you give the yetzer hara that little daylight, he takes advantage of that. I always say this after the fall, but can never think of it before I fall. Oh well, here I go again. Day 1. Please Hashem give me the strength to get through this, one day at a time. May Hashem give strength to all of us to keep fighting this battle!

Fell Shmell!

(I can't say it as convincingly as bards -sorry)

Don't let that Menuval stop you from re-revving your truck (or tricycle) and keeping on trucking...

Remember -this isn't a day-counting contest.

If you see where you slipped -pick up that banana peel, and throw it in the trigger box not to be touched...

KOT,

EBD

Speak to the group!!!! this is what we are here for.  To pick each other up in the time of need.  Like BD said "Fell Schmell".
This time around we'll work the streak together.  No more flying solo.

Sorry I didn't post yesterday. I guess today was my first full day being that my last fall was on Tuesday at 12:04 AM or so. So this is the first full day under my belt B"H. Tuesday after falling went well. Today also went well. It's unbelievable how much harder it is after a fall. Before I fell, I felt much stronger (which may be the reason I fell, because I felt like I was stronger, not realizing it wasn't me.) Today though, bad thoughts were starting to pop into my head at random intervals in the day. All I could do was say in my head that I can't fight this. Please Hashem get these thoughts out of my head. And it worked B"H. I got to make sure my first step is right. But either way, I have a full Day 1 officially under my belt. May Hashem give strength to all of us to keep fighting this battle!

I fell today. The whole time I thought to myself that I need to get in touch with someone from GYE somehow, someway, but my lust got control of me. I didn't look to Hashem to help me through it. I tried fighting in myself and I don't have the ability to do that. Hence, I fell. It's funny the way it works. If bad thoughts enter my mind in middle of the day when I'm busy with other stuff, I think to Hashem to help me get those thoughts out of my head. But when I'm in a situation when I know someone else left the computer unlocked for example, I never think of Hashem. The lust immediately gets a hold of me and I can't think of anything else. Anyone have any suggestions? Either way, tomorrow is another day. May Hashem give strength to all of us to keep fighting this battle!

A few things that work for me after a fall is to 1-analize how I got in that situation to fall again and to try to avoid it next time (if someone leaves the computer unlocked, dont start surfing->turn it off!!!)  2- concentrate on my feeling after a fall and the next time I am tempted to force myself to remember that feeling, 3- to contemplate what I will win by watching and what I will lose by watching 4- to contemplate what I will win by not watching and what I will win by not watching 5- to imagine how I will feel when I see myself watching porn and nudity when I leave this material world and the Creator shows me my entire life.
I hope tese strategies will work for you too.
hatzlacha!!!!

Haven't posted in a while. Been a little busy. Thanks Mordechai for the tips. It's always nice to hear how other people handle situations. It has the chance to give me a new perspective, which is always nice in this type of battle. Ok, so updating what I've been up to. Things have been pretty good for the past few days. The fight is getting harder though. I am not good at dealing with stress, and never have been. However, over the past few days, stress seems to always be there, and it doesn't look like it's leaving anytime soon. Everyone seemingly has their own opinion on how I should handle things (sorry for being vague) and I just need to look at all the factors, and do the things that make the most sense. However, I would still like to accommodate people, so it's hard having that monkey on your back. Hopefully, the decisions that I make will work out for everyone. May Hashem give strength to all of us to keep fighting this battle!

cantdoitmyself wrote on 16 Mar 2011 13:18:

Amen!!!

stay strong candoitmyself!!!! Keep up the good work!!

I apologize to anyone who has been trying to keep track of my battle. I haven't had time to post in a while. But BH things are amazing. I am working on my 7th full clean day BH. I am so happy. I feel like I have a new found energy. I don't know why Hashem keeps giving me more chances, but hopefully, He can help me get through this one, because there is no way I can do it myself. I need Him, as we all do. May Hashem give strength to all of us to keep fighting this battle!

Great to see someone not giving up. U gota trust urself b/c hashem trusted u and if he trusted u it means that u can do it and it's in your honor that he trusted you Malochim aren't trusted with these things they waren't given the torah b/c they waren't trusted with a Y"H. Just never give up and eventually you'll be zoche to see the Ball Dover going up in flames together with all the chomets all that will be left will be his ashes.

Keep on the fight with SIMCHA and don't worry.