you + 16 = tov

well i actually just had a fall.
in truth it started last friday when i saw something and i convinced myself that all was ok and that i didnt need help. now that i had the fall i realize that every day i kept going back to that image (in my head) and wanting to get more than it, each day i had more intense hiruhurim until i collapsed today.
i now know (nothing that i didnt know before) that every friday i need to reach out to the chevra, and aspecially my partner.

now.....fell shmelll,  FULL SPEED TRUCKING AHEAD!

FEHL SHMELL
ONWARDS SOLDIER
TRICK OR TRUCK

FELL SHMELL
OOOON VAYYYTERRR!!!!!!!!!!

don't forget to drink up

he is underage, be carefull, the police may show up at your door.

ok here.

shkoyach.

i already spoke with my partner (so when you read this you already know about it)
fridays in the morning is usually my difficult spot, i have to be the one to open the door for cleaning lady and be home (hopefully soon i will trade this job with someone else) (and yes dov, i know what you said about this before)
im going to be speaking  with my partner  before she comes and also checking in with him as she will be here.

today is proudly day 1

today is prudly day 2, but its not 2 days, its another ONE day that happens to equal 2......

day 3
ACTIVE RECOVERY
the sound of that sends shivers down my back (ok not really but its super important) just cus i know the ideas and concepts iwas given by GYE and the big book calls, doesnt mean that i have recovery, i need to be ACTIVE about it,

when im passive i just kinda tell myself that o i know everything but it kinda goes to the back of my mind.

how do we be active about recovery, do something active, pick up a phone and call your sponser (and dont just shmooz with him ,talk about your struggle) send someone a pm, or post on your thread, BE ACTIVE ABOUT IT!

thanks HS, that's a very important point

i once heard a shiur from Rav Moshe Weinberger shlita and he gave a moshol of an older bochur who wrote a multi-volume guide to marriage and relationships. while it was probably full of good ideas, nice quotes and sound advice, it does not come close to someone who actually lives it...

thanks for sharing that

Und vos iz mit a poor shteppen?

(and how about a step or two?)

The calls and the reaching out are great, but that is all parrying. What about the 'attack'? For me, that's stepwork. And hey....isn't that ultimately what the chevreshahft and openness with the call-ees is for? Creating a fellowship for stepwork and true growth and fredom?

dov of course the steps are needed, but what i meant to say (or what i meant to copy from shlomo) is that we cant just passivly do them,
the steps need to be active steps.
btw today is day 6

What do you mean?

Active steps to me, means doing some writing work on each one, sharing it with a sponsor, davening to Hashem about the stepwork you are doing that day on a regular basis, and taking action based on that step to allow Hashem in to help us. It's hard work and real action. Not just not acting out. That's not action - it's just not acting out.

I am missing something?

nope, i agree with you